I am sorry bobby. What time do you get to bed at night?
Do you have a routine? It is called sleep hygiene.
love bizi

around 12 but lately waking up 2:45
sleeping pills have never worked for me. i am so tired i am having a lot of trouble doing my p.t. exercises. i think i am going backwards.
i am so fed up and will no longer try any new medication.
but when i read what donna has gone through i feel like a twirp if that is a word.
you know how i am always freaking out about money, my printer stopped working. it won't power on so i don't think robert can fix it.
love,
bobby

i am trying to read meditations by marcus aurelious-fantastic

I'm sorry your not getting enough sleep. I just lay in my bed if I can't
sleep and relax.

Donna

Bobby,

We are all different. And I just have learned to live with the things I have dealt with. I am just learning to put up
with what I need to.

Donna

you are just so incredible. it blows my mind.
love,
bobby

i tried 4 pills of BISACODYL 5MG) and i had stomach pain all night and it hasn't worked. I still have bottles of magnesium citrate but some people say the company is going bankrupt and there won't be any more. i just ordered another bottle of milk of magnesia. i recently threw out a bottle because it didn't work but now decided to try it again. also bought another bottle of ducolax liquid which i had also tried a couple of years ago and that didn't work before. I have a couple of more things to try. I am so worried that I might have to have surgery. so terrifying.
robert took pudge for her blood test. now i think she might be 14. she seems fine but i felt i better spend 250 dollars to check her out. The vet will call today with the results. I had a terrible fight with Joyce about everything the other night. She thought that Pudge didn't need a blood test. If I wanted I should just have her get a physical. I thought that a blood test would be a lot more revealing. Yesterday Robert agreed with my decision. I complained about the waiting have doing on the phone. I got a letter from the state which I didn't understand and was worried it meant I might owe 6000. SHE said i should either wait or hang up. I went crazy and told her i had to find out about the letter. it turned out it was about the landlord and i was just sent a copy. I had to keep on calling my pharmacy about my antidepressant. one time i waited 45 minutes on the phone. i filed two complaints to Walgreens and was planning to just stop taking an antidepressant because it barely worked anyway. I skipped a couple of days which is a no no. I had asked to speak with manager and wound up speaking with the assistant manager and later the manager called and who said it was very complicated but they were working on it. finally yesterday it got resolved. Then I paid 250 to a new tax accountant and then cancelled. originally my old accountant sent a letter saying he was 82 and retiring. I called his office to see if his son would take me and she didn't think so. a couple of weeks later his assistant called and he said he would take me.
I kept on calling and emailing the firm i was cancelling to see about a refund. I got no answer. I wrote the BBB and trashed them on yelp and facebook . I wrote them with that information plus the copy of the contract about cancelling. Yesterday I was sent a form to fill out for the refund. I called and left a message to see if I had done it right. No call back or email. F2ck them. If I DON'T GET THE REFUND WILL WRITE THE BBB AGAIN AND YELP AND FACEBOOK.
I will miss Pudge incredibly when she dies.. she is so precious and so beautiful and just perfect. I am very anxious about the blood test results. weird for the first time aby came over and scratched me. i have no idea why.
Just went. Thank God. Not totally but enough. I have been terrified of having to have my colon removed.
Genius Robert immediately fixed my printer after he came back from the vet's and gave me instructions about making the computer last longer. I gave him a couple of pounds of hamburger for danny and he said he would keep his promise never to mention to paying half the food.
A workman came to my apartment yesterday and we were talking and i mentioned my age and he said i looked much younger. That is what Marci always tells me. That was nice..
I DON'T CARE IF I HAVE PAIN ALL NIGHT as long as I can go a bit in the morning.
The book on Livia, empress of Rome just came yesterday. It is hard but I really want to know all about her and Roman society.

crap. i was late for the session with my therapist.

Good luck bobby.

Donna

i am so glad pudge had her blood test. her white blood count is low. she will go back to the vet next month to see if it was a fluke or not. he said it wasn't life threatening if it wasn't a fluke. he would check her bone marrow and give her medicine.
i have had a stomach ache all day.
love,
bobby