i cancelled the appt with doctor and gave no explanation. she wrote back if i wanted reschedule. i wrote back no. she asked if had another doctor and i said yes and she wrote best wishes and signed it with her first name. i wrote back and thanks and take care.
i just got off the phone with somebody who was a miracle worker. i get terrified over leases and she really went out of her way big time to help. she asked if i wanted the super to come and get it. i said no and will bring it downstairs tomorrow-wow-what kindness.
robert picked out the phone for me and i am just waiting for him to tell me to buy it
i can't deal at all with stress and those three things are huge stress.
love you
bobby who is flying

Glad you had that woman offer help to you. and of coarse roberts assistance in the phone It sounds like a good day even though it was stressful.
((((HUGS))))
love bizi

definitely. i did buy the phone but was impulsive and won't tell robert. they all offered a special plan for a year's time for 50 dollars and at first didn't check it out. the seller told me to call tracfone to try to get it. they said they would sell it to me. i had the idea of trying at first to cancel the other and then reorder with additional plan. the seller got of course confused. he is sending the phone and i call back tracfone and will get the special deal.

fell again . my arm hurts a bit and a toe. rats

stomach doesn't hurt so ibs hasn't returned just my arm and my right leg again. I was getting out of bed and went to hold on the walker by the bed and maybe lost balance and fell.
when i woke this morning aby was on one of my pillows and we cuddled. can't wait to talk with therapist and finally don't feel that awful anger. Glad i didn't send my former doctor a nasty email.
love,
bobby

i am shaking so much. I brought the lease downstairs and the super is going to give it to the manager who is in the building today. I included a typed note to thank the woman who helped yesterday dealing with lease. I wrote she was one of the sweetest people ever met and her name was appropriate, Mercy.
I just called my brokerage and asked for a seven thousand dollars check to be sent to me and I will put it in my checking account.. I was so anxious I even forgot my account number. This month will be the highest ever with the phone, the plan, insurance and then the Chinese chestI think about death so much because of my age and health I don't think I will run out of money but I always think the worse.
I got an email for relisting of my new cellphone which was 50 dollars less but it was locked to total wireless. I have no idea how much it would cost to unlock it.
Right now I am not stable at all. I just can't deal with stress all my life.

it was very nice talking with charlotte. i gave her permission to talk to Amelia. i had a good session with Amelia.
i looked at some sites about breathing.

I am glad that you had a good conversation with amelia.
sorry the phone got locked????
so sorry you fell again.
Do you have a chair that you could sit on instead of the bed?
You could use the chair as home base....I am worried about your time in bed and how it effects your back muscles. Sitting in the chair will help prevent more muscle break down.
just a suggestion.
love you,
bizi

i use a chair when i am on the computer. up until my late fifties i was very active in sports and walking my doggies.
i don't have to worry about the phone since it's carrier is tracfone.
since that nightmare with risperidone my constipation is worse and very uncomfortable. I might ask my internist for another medicine for constipation.
i seem to be very depressed since last night. it is so hard to tolerate. the falls also frighten me a lot.
right now i feel hopeless and old.
i forgot to add the rent deposit yesterday. will bring it downstairs later this morning. rats.
i love my bed and my kitty cats usually join me.
love you,
bobby
oh i am no longer angry or swearing and maybe that is why my depression is awful.

i lucked out. my lease isn't going to be picked up til monday so i put the rental deposit in the envelop.
think i am going pig out today and order from amazon's fresh. aby won't let me read. she is being so affectionate.