Hello,
It's Friday and we are waiting to hear how Nikko kept busy with her cousin in town.
'Time for people to let us know where they are and what's on their minds.

I got to stay home from work today. I relaxed and even went to the gym.
I am waaaaaay behind at work, but heck, relaxing was necessary for me to make it back there tomorrow.

I skipped a memorial service today. Hubby went instead.
Sunday, I go to a funeral mass at a catholic church for a different colleague. It will be tough, especially since the colleague who died was young and left at least two college aged children behind.

Mari

Awww, that's so sad about your collegue, hopefully you won't have to go to another memorial service for a long long time Mari. I understand about staying home to relax and how it's totally necessary in order to get back to the grind. You do what you know you need to and don't worry about what people think.

I am doing okay so far, have to go get blood drawn today for my upcoming dr appt. I really hate having to get it done but when you take a lot of medications you need to monitor your liver functions and other things. I also have to go return a pair of shoes I got my DH that were completely the wrong size. I swear they were the right size but sadly they really weren't, I don't know how I got them in place of what I thought I was getting. But then that's how it goes sometimes, you pick up one thing and are positive its what you wanted only to find later it's completely not.

Ou TV died yesterday morning and DH worked hard all day setting up a computer as a TV since we had the right video card it wasn't too hard, but he had to fiddle around with the hard drive and whatnot for hours. I am lucky he's so good with stuff like that. Jackie was so upset it died on us like that, so I knew we had to either get another TV or get that computer set up for us ASAP.

Good for you Mari about going to the gym.
Hubby and I have been walking in our neighborhood at night after dinner in the evenings.
The weather is finally a bit cooler to allow us to enjoy the walks. IT is a good activity for us to do together.
Hubby has a gig tonight so am not sure what I will do this evening. There is a big convention this weekend called Tinsels and Treasures which is a big holiday showcase of arts, crafts and home decorations in our cajun dome. Over 150 booths are set up there. Am going with a girl friend of mine and perhaps her dausghter who is quite the shopper at age 10.
Hopefully I will be able to work in the yard as I have many weeds calling for my attention. WE have only a small chance of rain over the weekend.
There seems to be an area of sub tropical activity in the gulf so will watch for future updates.
Have ag reat weekend all!
bizi

I am not having a great week. Its been rough. Not sure what all is up.
But its just not been so good. I just hope soon to get some answers.

I have been doing what I'm supposed to, but it seems like I need to
do something else, but have no clue what. I'm really afraid I'm going
to end up more depressed if I don't get to the bottom of this soon.

I'm really worried about what is up with my son's memory and what
I'm going to do with the fact that not only does he think he has taken
his meds. But then when I go check I seem to think he has too sometimes.

Then like in this case, I was in there this morning getting my own. Just happened to double check he had taken todays. I always do. But noticed
yesterdays was in there. Both times, Oh no what happened. He told me
he took it, I even remember sending him to double check in the morning.
Because for some reason I had a feeling. And then when I went to get
mine I checked.

But for some reason half of yesterday I thought it was wednesday, and
I went through the day that way, even though I had physical therapy.
And knew it was on Thursday and I went. But later in the day I realized
I'd gone through the day thinking it was Wednesday, it just dawned on
me about time I should have been heading home, that I had almost
two more hours because it wasn't wednesday but thursday and bowling
day for Derrick, so he wouldn't be home till later.

So I'm in trouble and don't know what to do. I was on auto pilot yesterday
morning. I just went with what my night before told me was my schedule.

So whether I knew it was thursday or not, is a toss up for PT, because I just
knew I was supposed to go, it never entered my head of the day.

Its really going to be a problem. If something doesn't change.

DOnna

Two part,
I cancelled today's plans before I even figured out the mix-ups because
I was just that sure I needed the day home in bed. And not in the car.

I was to go listen to a reknown autism speaker. Which is really something
I was looking forward to for my job. I really needed this, its something
that is becoming more needed with the cases I get.

But I could tell I wasn't in shape to drive, or to go. And I was scared about
it.

And tomorrow I have a long day presentation, but I'm not doing most of
the presentation, or driving. My co-presenter is doing most of it.

I just have to get to her house.

Donna

I am looking for some pixie dust for Tinker bell to spread over our lives and make some better feelings.
I am thinking of you all that have conquest this weekend and prayer for strength.

We are going to the local fair my daughter entered her sunflower, I will post pictures when i get home tomorrow night,

Sending love.
di

Dear Donna,
I am sorry that you are having these issues.
IT must be scarey.
I sometimes go the whole day thinking it is another day too.
It is very scarey not knowing if you have taken meds or not.
I take them when I brush my teeth so twice a day I take pills.
I don't use a pill box.
THis has worked for me for years but I don't have a kid to check up on.
How old are your children?
((((HUGS))))
bizi
looking forward to your pictures Di!

Mom is coming over and we're going shopping in a few but I am so anxious about stuff I just can hardly stand it. I took some lorazepam but I am still feeling it in my stomach, not as bad as before I took it but man I am so tired of being scared all the time. I sure hope the paxil starts helping with it.

It's been a week now and I don't feel like crying all the time though I could definitely still cry. I am so scared about something that could happen, it's so terrible to feel this kind of fear all the time. It's not like I am imagining this thing I am afraid of, I'm not, we really could end up facing this horrible problem I am worried about.

I can't talk about it, but it's really draining me...I don't know how to make it go away either, it's just awful...

I understand about thinking you forgot to take your meds Donna, I have forgotten mine sometimes and I feel it and if it's too late to take them I just have to deal with it. Hope that things get easier for you soon.

The notice I got about the funeral had the wrong time on it.
So they started at 9:30 and I got there at 11:00 BUT they were still going strong. The church and the parking lot were packed. People were standing in the aisles.

Other people from work were there but they didn't see me because I was in the back, . . but I did talk to my student has his mother -- a best friend of the colleague.

I sobbed and came home and grouched at hubby.
I'm going to print out the ingredients to a soup and have him go buy the stuff and then make it for me while I got back to sleep. The chinese food I picked up last night is making me feel sick and bloated.

What a crappy way to start the day.
The colleague was only 38. I think she had had lupus.
She left behind a huge extended family and many friends.

Mari

Pam,

Have you taken an SSRI before?
My sister took Paxil for a few weeks and got very anxious on it -- she developed Trichotillomania (hair pulling).

The Prozac I took for 6 weeks sent me to the hosptial my one and only time.


'Just saying . . . in case you are noticing that your anxiety is increasing.
'Sorry if this is not helpful. I'm just trying to throw it out there.

I hope that you really do starting feeling the anxiety go away.

Mari