when people are determined, I don't think there is anything anybody can do...
he tried dragging you into his web and I hope you don't feel any guilt. From what you have written, he hasn't tried to help himself and nobody can help him if he doesn't help himself.
I am so sorry that you are going through this. You already have enough to contend with.
Bobby

Thank you, Bobby.

I'm starting to get anxiety in my chest. I have no way to know if this is from the change in my Verapamil dose or if it is from the news I got this evening.

Maybe I'll just go to bed early for a change.

Mari

the news you got is so very heavy and you have sich a giving and responsible nature. You were trained to be a caretaker and it is so difficult to break the role or the feelings of responsibility for the other. I think the transition is feeling sadness for the other than the need to step in and help and if you don't step in, you feel guilt and failure. It is a huge leap to just feel sadness and to be sure to take care of yourself and not feel selfish.
I almost offered to help Ron again (who is in a wheelchair) I caught myself and said that when I last offered I suffered a major depression that still hasn't left and I went sleep deprived and had to switch and up medications some of which caused me to gain more weight.
I very much liked the article you put on the sinead thread...I hope she had a lot of viewers.
You have to tell yourself what a wonderful person you are and what a hero you are coping with being bipolar and coming from such a dysfunctional family and being robbed of a childhood.
Bobby

Please don't blame yourself for not listening or picking up his calls.

There is nothing you really could of done, if he was determined it would of happened sooner or later.

I hope he pulls through and can get a good p-doc and therapist, and his meds monitered.

I assume he will be transferred (maybe) to a rehab place after the hospital, which would be helpful.

Hang in there. Lots of Hugs, Nikko