Hi all,

Ever since New Years Eve when I remembered where the will was that my husband made out, things have been a nightmare. I'm in limbo here and in the meantime my in-laws were scheming with lawyers right off the back. They are pretty slick and sneaky, to be honest. Please anyone help me calm myself down and slow down these racing thoughts. I have businss to attend tomorrow that cannot be put off and I need my sleep.

befuddled2

I'm on or anyway around and about right now...

Not sure what to say, how to help, but I'm here.

~ waves ~

I hope you can sleep tonight Barbara.
It is very restorative.
Hope that your day goes well tomorrow.
bizi

Sometimes i say this... sometimes in a prayer, sometimes in meditation, even a mantra to repeat and replace anxious obsession. So i offer this to you, tonight, and as you move forward in this troubled time...

Dear Befuddled,

My hubby and his siblings got into a big mess about inheritance when his father died a couple of years ago.

He stopped talking to a few of them because he got too upset. He figured out that they were deliberately pushing his buttons.

He hired a lawyer and let the lawyer handle everything. The lawyer is very nice and polite and never pushes buttons.


Do you have activities that can calm you? Or that can at least bring you into a less racing state?

I hope that you sleep.

M.

Thank all,

I prayed over and over last night till I went to sleep and that is how I did finally calm down and go to sleep. I am much calmer today. Now today is the day I get things done to my apartment. I have a big mess in it now.

befuddled2

((((((Barbara)))))),

Here's a gift of words and thoughts for you to start the new year with:

from: http://www.stefanierenee.net/

Read these and you'll understand:
Mondo-Beyondo - Part 1 - http://www.superherodesigns.com/jour...es/000452.html
Mondo-Beyondo - Part 2 - http://www.superherodesigns.com/jour...es/000778.html

http://www.kerismith.com/blog/archives/000162.html

BIG HUGS (and blessings and love) for the New Year.

Barb

I loved it all,and truly no more fears there exhausting in a very wrong
way. go away fears we don't need or believe in you..But
it wouldn't hurt to look both ways while crossing the street,because
we are all valuable in so many ways...Sue

You "cashew"

((((((Sue))))))

It's a whole process. It isn't just that you say "OK, I'm not afraid of anything". You've also got to put out your INTENTIONS for what you DO WANT in your life (that's the Mondo Beyondo list part).

I'm still laughing Thanks for making me smile today. BIG HUGS.

Barb

Mondo Beyondo -- 2008

from: http://www.superherodesigns.com/jour...s/2008_01.html

I've got a HUGE problem with initiative -- just gettings things started -- since my Mom died (1983) ... since my ex-husband died (1996) ... since my son went to prison AGAIN (1997). And the big kick-to-the-curb ... since I retired in 2001 -- not my choice, but, I felt I had no choice at the time.

I've been getting a little bit more depressed every year. A little more detached every year. A little worse in maintaining my life every year.

But, still -- realizing the HUGE accomplishment that THE DOCTOR and I achieved from 1979 to 1984 in getting me to stop trying to kill myself. I HAVE STOPPED

I've spent so much of my life depressed and isolated and protecting myself from ever getting hurt again as much as my Brother hurt me by killing himself .. that I've gotten myself into a place that I don't like very much -- don't like at all.

This Mondo Beyond "Thing" is the first thing that I've seen in years -- decades -- that's what I've been looking for -- a way to accomplish the major attitude shift that I need to accomplish in order to live the rest of my life.

Such a simple thing. Just a different viewpoint on my life. But, such a lovely tradition to start NOW. Forgive myself for last year (and last year, and last year, and last year) and promise myself to do better. What a NICE thought

I care about you guys so much. You've given me a safe, supportive place to be and to go. I'm able to offer support back (which, if you knew my earlier history, after I lost my Brother) is a HUGE DEAL.

Us Bipolar-ers and Borderline Personality Disorder-ers (spellings) are very tightly connected. Wouldn't surprise me a bit to find out that we're all related way back in the tree somewhere But, BIGGEST of all, we're all slogging along on a very similar journey. Trying to overcome years of being stomped on and trying to find a place to fit. And trying to accept what we've become.

This whole Mondo Beyond list thing is such a simple idea. So easy to think about. And then start. And has such potential for making such a a huge difference.

And yet, what it is is ACCEPTANCE. Such a simple concept. Yet, such a beautiful gift.

HUGS for the room. This is gonna be a good year for all of us:


Barb