Year end crap at work is keeping me away. But I had to take a break this morning.

My fibro has officially kicked my butt. I am struggling to just get out of bed. I get so mad at myself. Hubby has a hard time with it. He is so used to my go-go-go and this drag-drag-drag is difficult for him to understand. He was giving me a hard time the other night and I just looked at him and said "one day, you will understand." He thought I was mad, but I wasn't. It's just the truth. He doesn't understand right now. One day he will get it.

So last night, he made dinner while I did the dishes. He was talking to our oldest daughter on the phone and was trying to remember the word Fibromyalgia. lol. He was telling her how dificult things are for me right now. So, telling him worked. Made me laugh though. He sure is a keeper.

The boys have sinus infections and chest colds. They are both so miserable. I feel bad I have to work so much. All they want to do is cuddle with mommy.

I had to go to the pharmacy last night and pick up anti-biotics and cough meds and standing in line just made me want to bawl. Then I had to grocery shop. By the time I hit the car, I was a wreck. But then I remembered a conversation I just had with my mom. When she was about my age, she would go grocery shopping and about half way through, she would get so weak she'd have to sit on the floor. (She has myasthenia gravis) Then after a while of that, she would have to lay down on the floor. Then, of course, everyone would freak and try to call an ambulance. She would also just want to bawl. lol We laugh now. Then, it wasn't funny at all. SO.....I sat in the car last night and thought..."well, at least I made it this far." I felt like I had won a battle instead of beating myself up.

Love you all. Sorry I am so distant. I think about you all so much.

oh sweet bear,
You come by this honestly.
I am glad that your hubby got it and that he is helping....
sorry that the boys are sick and sorry that youhave to work so much.
They probably would have to have 2 people working in your office to replace the work that you do for them...
they appreciate you right?
lurk all you can and post whenever you are able...
we understand.
((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
bizi