if i don't post for a while consider it a self imposed straightjacket coz i am having to delete my junk all over i spew and then it's like all off kilter... like in that clutter thread the clutteriest thing was my head i think, what the heck does my self analysis have to dow ith Mari's junk. ZERO. so i chopped it down.

but i've like pm'd personal stuf and ... way too much


well if i'm not here... its not coz i don't want to be with you guys... its just i can't seem to wrap my brain around a single thing without a million others creeping in, and in my natural state i have logorrhea and parenthetical speech and now its like forgetit...

ok. stop. i'll be thinking baout you guys... i don't know if i'll post much till i can get some serious knockout zleep - 2 nights no sleep so far... nap yesterday for couple hours lol. no, not lol.

byte for now
i mean bye - for now

~ waves ~ from all over the freakin place and i have a handful of no no... shut up, go hit submit... later guys

wacky in a wonderful way. Don't stay away too long.

WAVES

Sleep..................and return refreshed...........take life slowly.:

David

sleep and heal waves.

Waves sweetie,
I really think you need to take a higher dose of your zyprexa.
Especially since you are coming down off some of your meds.
It will take some serious time adjusting to the changes that you are making...not days like you wish.
YOur body could be going thru withdrawl and that is not fun at all.
If you are still awake I hope you will consider upping the z....
bizi

bizi my auth is out and i talked to mypdoc today finally he will let me drop by wed at his office - wed as in day not as in married - and fill outthe auth, no session. i took 5mg Zyprexa but i only have anothre 5 for tomorrow then i'm outtttttt until wed night. wedding night loolllll ooooooh yes i should chang emy mood again..... not my real mood it's up there, just not up there on the screen. hee hee
love you bizi now i'll read the rest of your post oops.

yes i will up the z, i may ask for 10's instead of 5's i dunno... he will hate me for what i've done... but i have done a very very very good and hard thing that has put me in this place so i just have to surf ~ waves ~ trying not to wipeout

will send you a pm so you understand

what a sweet cuddly picture! thank you

wacky ~ waves ~

I am big time worried...please feel my love across the ocean
love
Bobby

oh dear bobby i do i do and i hope you feel mine too, i posted to your thread but i thought later it was somehow inappropriate so we killed it so thats why you haven't heard from me in a bit but i think of you cnstnatly i wish we could liek somehow stick our moods all in a blender and then pour out two cups and i could cancel out your depression BIG time baby!

you hold on hold on tight and pray i loved your mantra

you are a beautiful gal and always in my heart

~ waves ~ from across the ocean