I'm so glad you feel a little better. And I hope you can get out more
tomorrow.

Donna

Barbara, I was on here looking for you tonight...haven't seen you around lately and missed you. Saw this post and wanted to offer something to you that was given to me and pray it will help you also.
When I was in the middle of a very big depression with 4 kids, a mom living with us(that was nice) a husband, and not much money but a good life, I still felt as if there was no one but me alive. Horrible feeling. Your situation I can only imagine as far as the abuse, divorce and now his death and your lonliness. I can tell you though what my Pastor told me in counceling(he was also trained in counceling). His biggest advice to me during a session was "go home this week and do something creative." Now I am NOT a creative person but I did have some plants that of course got neglected during my long depression. I went home stewed awhile and then it hit me...I got up and started working with my plants, feeding plant food, dusting, repotting some. Lo and behold loving those little plants put something back into my life that I needed so badly. Don't know the phy about it, do know that I started feeling amore alive. Now I don't know if you like plants or maybe have a pet but I hope for you that you can find something that you would enjoy and focus your interest on it and give it everything you got...even if your best right now is very small. Believe me and know that even a small effort can start budding and then blooming and a smile will fill you again. Hugs and blessings, :hug: froggie

Dear Befuddled,
What is your weather like?
Have you been able to start planning your garden?
I remember that last year you painted some impatiens. http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/nature/violet.gif http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/nature/violet.gif http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/nature/violet.gif

Pictures!! I want pictures!!:winky: :)

Mari http://www.thesmilies.com/smilies/nature/tree.gif

Thanks everyone. Froggie and Mari, I am looking forward to planting my garden. I've arlready started getting it ready for planting. It seems that my neighbors though won't listen and call me in the morning and wake me up before I'm ready and it ruins my whole day. Today would be nice to work in the yard but am too out of it from being awoken too early. The sun has been out for a few days now. Yesterday I went to the post office, to the bank, got my hair cut, and went grocery shopping. When I got home I washed and folded 2 loads of laundry. I was exhausted last night but felt content. And Mari, I will post pictures of the garden.