That's a nice nickname. I knew that this church was different,and they prayed allot,and they tried to help people. The day that it happened,there where some American Missionaries to Haiti visiting our church. I thought that I would attend that church because I was desperate for help,and I hoped that they could help me. They where a good group of people,who meant well. Because they prayed so much,I decided to go there for awhile. It's a good thing that I'm understanding,and I've read the Bible,through,and through. The missionary from Haiti hit me hard in the stomach,and my stomach was completely relaxed. I didn't expect that,then he hit me again very hard. I cannot describe what I felt after this happened.I don't know why they thought that could help. I believe that they read that Kenneth Hagen did this,so they tried it on me. I read that same book,so I knew that they tried it because they read that Kenneth Hagan did it. Hagan was a minister that founded a Faith University in the Mid-West. I respect him also. After a year the Pastor of that church said he thought that I would do better at another church. He said that they where a warfare church. Naturally this made me feal strange because I felt like I was being ex-communicated. They where a young congregation,and where not seasoned. The Pastor never went to a seminary,or any college. I forgive them,and know that it was a mistake,and advising me to leave was another. I don't know why I'm writing out all of this information. I guess that it's all down inside me,and I'm wondering if anyone else has been through this. I wonder why do these things happen to me?


I wonder if other people have been through things like this. Other things have happened to me. I hope that this experience of mine at church does not deter any one from going to church. I want people to go to church,and get prayer. I'm pretty sure that nothing like that will happen to them. So I hope that I have not discouraged anyone from going to church. That's not what I'm trying to do. I haven't talked to anyone about this in detail in a long time. I guess that I'm trying to get closure. I still have my faith. It's just sort of flickering right now.


I'm starting to remember other bad experiences that I've had. I haven't had any good therapy sessions in a long time. These counseling sessions have always been expensive. I hope that Social Services helps me to hook up to some good therapists. I hope for a good one.


This is a little joke. I think that it was a Henny Youngman joke. It goes like this..... A psychiatrist finds you cracked,and leaves you broke.... I love good humor. Brokenfriend

Geez, no wonder you're username is "Broken"friend! I can't believe anyone would punch you. Esp. someone supposedly trying to help!

No, you haven't discouraged me from going to church. People are nice to me there. I get to help with the children and they make me smile a lot!

You are right about prayer helping, and I will continue to remember you in my prayers. Hugs to you!

Dear Friend,
Thanks for the Henny Youngman joke.

Church people are like other humans -- they don't understand people with mental disorders.
We live among them, work among them, . . . . drive, live in families, shop, pay taxes. . .
. . . and yet people don't understand us, are afraid of us, hurt us, even hold us up to ridicule.
It's probably not their fault. How could ANYONE understand this??? I don't think I understand.

Sorry.
I'm not in a good mood today.

Mari

Twinkletoes Ain't that tha truth. When they where praying for me,I had my eyes closed,and WWaaMMoo. They punched me in the stomach,and I could not deflect some of the power of that punch. Then I got punched again. He didn't hold back either,and that's the hardest punch I've ever felt. I hate to say this,and I'm kind of kidding. The next time someone punches me in church when I'm praying,I'm going to open my eye's,and stand up,and knock their block off. LOL hahaha. That will probably never happen again.

Mari I'm sorry that you are having a bad day. Hugs to you. When I moved,I think that I got rid of that book,along with a giant Dumpster load of things. The book's name is,"Henny Youngmans 10,000 one liners".The thing I like about that book,is the jokes are so short. You can read them real fast. I was never a fan of his,but that book was extremely funny. I skipped over some parts of it. Brokenfriend

I'm exhausted right now but I wanted to tell you how proud I am of you Brokenfriend You're doing fine, you'll be fine.

No leading me away from church and god.

I would like to relate too. That the church I grew up in, In kokomo is
very strongly supporting the mentally ill. THey have a few members
that are bi-polar and other things. Two being my Sister and her husband.

My sister and my mother are both very involved in running the local
NAMI organizations, and they are working to get the police departments
to work with them too.

Our church there supports them, through loaning out the church and supporting all the things they do. Its a good connection. They also
welcome all the members to church and also make it very easy for them,
to feel like they belong.

Many have to be in certain parts of the church, need rides, or might even
need a friend to have lunch with. these are all things the church can
and does provide.

Donna

That sounds like a really good and loving church, dmom. I feel this is christianity practiced instead of just preached.

Minymo

You hit it on the nose. That is exactly what it is. They practice what they
preach. And they are upset when they hear some of the stories that come
in with the people that visit.

I am also very fortunate that they are always first to come to the rescue when my son is there that if he is off or having a seizure. They will stay with him, get my mom, one of my sisters or a nephew if I'm not available right away.

Even though I don't live close by they have been the church that has sponsored and paid half his way to church camp for many of the years he went. Even though I have a church here in my area. Its mainly because at
times we were between ministers, and were having services, but not a minister to sign is papers. And our church is very small no children around
his age. So when he went he always went with my nephew or by his self after he knew the group. So they would pay 1/2 his fee like the other kids.

One year I remember so clearly that my own church wanted to know later that year, it was a difficult year for us, with seizures and other health issues.
If I needed them to give me back 1/2 his fee for camp, because they learned
he had went and hadn't gotten to pay it. I said, because I knew they really didn't have the money. That no the church I grew up in at Kokomo had offered us the money, and had signed the ministry part since we didn't have
a full time on duty minister. The person asking, says oh that was so nice of
them. And even offered to go ahead and pay the other 1/2 anyway so we
wouldn't be out any money, because she knew how many bills we had.

So it is a good working double church at times for us. Donna

Dear Friend,
What is happening today?
How are you feeling?
Mari

Actually it was a good day. I figured out a problem that I was having with one of my hobbies. I went to the Pharmacy,and they didn't have my meds ready. I said that I here it's a very difficult job,and I didn't know it. I said I appreciate you all. I held out my arms. The pharmacist said yes,and she confided in me,and mentioned some of there difficulties. She gave me a big smile. I felt like I have lost some of my Pharmacy Phobia. I'm glad that a member posted just how hard it is for them to work in a pharmacy. Have a good day Mari. Thank you for checking up on me. I'm OK right now. BF Steve