Nothing seems to be working with my meds. I see my pdoc on Friday to go over them. I asked for an emergency appointment today because I've been doing something again and I need to get something out but it was canceled at the last moment. My meds right now include:

1200 lithium (have been everywhere from 900 to 1800, depending on mood)
75 Lamictal and going up
Klonopin.5 for a long time but I felt it was making me more depressed
I can't take antidepressants because they make me manic.

I have the VNS implanted for TRD, but it's off right now. There are a lot of side effects, I have to use a CPAP machine when it's on and I feel like the mask is suffocating me. I have GERD and it makes it 10 times worse. I went through all that and it's doing nothing.

I'm just stuck in more ways than one and can't seem to find a way out.