tell us what is happening to you.
I am sorry that you are having a hard time right now.
I am glad that you have a job in this terrible economy.
beth

Hi,
Can you see a doctor if you need to?
Do you have some sort of medical insurance or some way to get it?
M.

my job is barely a job, i have the least amount of hours out of everyone in the pharmacy this week and next. all the pharmacists keep telling me i'm doing well and other people are doing not so well and that theyre confused as to why i get the least amount of hours. ive come in early when they needed me, covered for people on my days off ( one week i covered for 2 people and worked 14days straight no days off) sometimes ill skip my break if the pharmacy is busy and im not saying i deserve a medal but at least recognition would be cool.


im also starting to feel VERY lonely. im still with mike and we've been doing so well, but i have no friends, and nothing to do,and no where to go when were both not at work. ive planned a disney trip for may and its all i think/talk about because i dont do anything else. i spend 60% of my free time on a disney planning forum, and the rest of my free time is either lying in bed with mike or driving.

i wish i had health insurance. as of the 31st im not on my dads plan anymore cuz im not going back to school next semester, but CVS cut my hours just in time to screw me up, with the hours im working ill BARELY make 100 take home a week, and the health insurance (for even part time) is like 23 bucks a week, 23 out of 300 isnt bad but 23 out of 95 is bad.

on top of that, i live in Massachusetts, where on our taxes theres a spot to put in our health insurance card number, they verify it and if it doesnt work, you get a fine of over 900 dollars because its state law in MA to have health insurance....there is NO way i can afford 900 because i dont have health insurance (especially since i cant even afford the health insurance itself!)

i dunno where to go/turn to. i need health insurance now. i was trying to look into getting MassHealth or something, but i cant figure any of it out, i read page after page and everything just swims in my head and i cant even think about it all without getting dizzy.

i feel like im not even myself, i feel like im an unfun, corperate, cold, outer shell of myself and its driving me insane. i cant sleep, i hate eating, i just wanna get out/leave. the snow here is making me crazy, i have panicy thoughts/feelings almost daily. im litterally physically hurting all the time, i feel like the world is just trying to hold me down.


thats part of the reason im so involved with disney, when on the boards, or planning in my notebook, or talking about disney everything just stops. im actually happy and i laugh and smile, nothing really else does that for me, except mike sometimes.


i just want things to go back to the fun way they were, i know i said i wanted things between me and mike to be more serious and more 'married like' but i didnt want it to be so heavy all at once, i was hoping to ease into it a little slower but now were in the thick of it and i feel like im asking about ways to spice up my marriage its kinda weird.


i feel like mikes family looks at me like the young immature little girl and they constantly rag on me and make me feel terrible, then if i say it upsets me, they tell me oh lighten up thats how we do things around here, but when they bother me, i cant tell if theyre joking or serious.


my mind, body and heart hurt.

Meg,
It is so good to see you post. I was wondering how you have been.
I would check into staying on your dad's insurance as a disabled dependant and see what happens. If you had symptoms and difficuty with maintaining school, job, since you were under 18, or high school ? Maybe 21 then you should try to apply for Soc sec and assistance to ave coverage.

I had two children maintained as adults on step dads insurance because their disability was prior to 18...Even though they tried to work.
You need to see if this new symptoms is related to something like RSD, fybromyalgia or auto immunine, but it will be difficult to take care of yourself without insurance.
Ask your Dad o find out how to have you kept on for disability.....

Then apply everywhere for anything to keep you going while you find out health wise how to get better.
Hugs
di

Dear Meg,
Sometimes we do not get better all by ourselves. Just like it takes a village to raise a child, it can take a village to get better. You need to reach out and find help.


We need the help of very good doctors and family. If family can't handle it, we need to do even more for ourselves by finding professionals who can point us in the right direction.

Mari

Meg

I'm sending hugs and hoping that you start to feel better soon.

I have no exact answers. But I agree get dad to look into the
insurance its possible that you can stay on because of being disabled.

Donna

Hi,
I have heard that our next president might do a national health plan that is similar to the one in Massachusetts.



How much is the insurance????

Mari

so friday i was supposed to go to a focus group on Friday for CVS. I was told it was January 9th from 1pm-5pm and it was at the corprate building in RI (a good hr and a half drive from my house) I agreed to go and was to be paid for the trip and everything.

So Friday I went to Rhode Island and went to six different CVS HQ buildings. No one knew what I was talking about...so Eventually after an hour of putting around looking for this place, one woman got my Regional Pharmacy Supervisor on the phone and she told me the group was 2 days before. I essentially drove to RI for nothing.

and on top of that my poor car is so light, i felt like i was going to be blown off the road with the winds that day. i was terrified driving my car all the way down, and all the way back and it was all for nothing. almost had a panic attack on the side of the highway. it was all too much and it wasnt fair to me.

i dont even know anymore.

I recently looked at myself in the mirror and almost becme physically sick. i almost threw up looking at how much weigh ive gained (when i get anxious/stressed/upset i eat when i should be writing)

with my days off i just do nothing. i wish I had money for a gym membership or something.

I really want/need a pedometer. I wanna try the 10,000 steps a day thing and drink water.



I just need help. I feel myself hiding in a corner

i am beyong exhausted with living.

quick note due to time limits,
jsut wanted to reach out to you.
I know that you are struggling, know that you are struggling with alot of other people too.
you are not alone.
I wish Ihad some other advice, maybe apply for another cvs job somewhere else?
so you could get more hours to get the health insurance that you really need to have.
((((HUGS))))
beth