Dear Meg

it is hard to know what to say.

you want meds.

you don't want doctors.

i hear you. the problem is, you can't get the one you want without the other. can you just see the "doctors" as a gateway to meds and feeling better? i'm sorry you've had bad experiences with them. perhaps try a new person. i've had some good ones with whom i did not feel judged or disrespected.

i want you get help. i am hearing that you want help. you need a professional right now, even if you don't want one. please do what you need to do... see a doctor or go to a hospital, to get your meds, even if you'd prefer not to.



~ waves ~

I was just thinking( Oh OH) and maybe it would be good to go to a womans resourse center. Sometimes they have connections to physicians who others can attest to that they are good and listen. It took me lot of trys, but it was indeed through referal, that finally got me the proper doctors. I am not the most stable person, nor the sharpest knife in the drawyer,but I did find the help by being persistant, actually angry about my whole situation. All of it happened right at the time I had to have the help medically. I have surgery on monday fussion C3-7. I wanted to post again, to tell you not to give up even if you have told your story a billion times. I posted to broken wings, as she is the one who is really coaching me through my terrors and nerves. You are the other one I was thinking about. I don't want you to give up. I can't eithor, and my fears are real too. Be good to yourself, and I will try to catch up with youwhen my hospital stay is finished. I kept your thread in my e-mail. take care, ginnie

I hate when I come here to eplain so many things I have in my head, but then before I type them all I get so overwhelmed I don't want to think about the things that bother me anymore :[

IF I DO NOT FEEL SAFE I WILL NOT BE SILENT.

I do not care if it is a person, place, thing, sentence, word, sound, feeling- IF I DO NOT FEEL SAFE i am not going to act like things are okay.

how do I know if I have PTSD ?

Dear Meg

this sounds healthy to me. it is easy to get conditioned into hushing up for the sake of social norms... but it is not healthy to pretend things are ok when they are not or when they do not feel ok.

~ waves ~

WEll meg, Many people who have had traumatic experiences can be triggered. These can be solders coming back from war, shell shock or reoccuring dreams, panic attacks from what they have experienced, many have commited suicide from the horrors of war. Many woman can have PTSD from being abused in the past. This may also apply to men.
I think our parent forum may even have a forum for PTSD. http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=15
It can be dibilitating...what does your therapist say if you have one?
I am sorry that you are feeling badly.
keep posting we are listening.
bizi

you will have to register to post but that is easy.

I have no therapist, everytime i try to make an app, i show up andhave a panic attack and miss it. i could give you a grocery list of events that have been extremely traumatic in my life and ive never been able to jus talk about them. ever. years of BS all held up inside. its stupid.