I hear your frustration....
I can relate to your feelings about your memory.
What you describe sounds like me....now.
Just how I made it thru school is really beyond me.
I think the meds mess with our abilities...maybe I am using that as an excuse.
or maybe it is jsut getting older, or maybe I am getting early altzheimers...it runs in my family....I was taking extra folic acid to help but then got afraid of it.
I need to do crossword puzzles but am so bad at recall that I quit....then I feel stupid.
can't remember movies, stories, vacations...it is like I don't have a long term memory at times.
How do you remember about the past when you are older..."the good old days" when you can remember it to begin with? I am only 45!
sorry to go on in your thread....
I hear your frustration...I really do.
You are very brave to go through with this again....
will be thinking about you tomorrow.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

found this tid bit on another site:
 

Everyone has a myriad of thoughts within our minds each and every day. Thoughts that are useful and good and thoughts that are harmful and don't apply to real life. You have a choice on which thoughts you wish to keep as useful and which ones to toss out like dirty bath water. In other words, you can choose to take that suicidal thought and decide that it is not applicable to you right now. By all means I know that this is not always an easy thing to do. It takes some time and practice to figure out how to do this, but it sure can be helpful.

BJ

I'm thinking of you. I sure wish I'd been able to post yesterday. But thats what happens when you have problems too. So know that I'm thinking
of you too.

Donna

Dear BJ,

'Thinking about you after your first treatment today.

The pdocs are serious about not driving.
People get lost.
Please be careful and take care of yourself.


Mari

Hi BJ
 

I'm thinking about you too. I hope It went OK today BF:hug::hug::hug:

rewrite our own script
 

Dear Friend,
What have you been up to? How are you?


:Writting:

Dear BJ,
I just saw something in my email box about how we need to
"rewrite our own script."
That made sense to me. I think it takes a lot of work and focus to rewrite our own life story, but for some of us, that is what is necessary so that we can move along in a more rewarding and promising direction.
.. . just a thought that I wanted to share.


Mari

HI Mari
 

I'm waiting for the Nurse Practitioner from social services to get a therapist for me. She said that I need therapy once a week. The Abilify didn't work for me,or the Klonipin. She added more Luvox in the morning,and I'm back on Xanax.

I'm down in money,and paying the bills with my former 401K. I got heavily taxed when I withdrew it. I'm waiting forever for that Social Security Disability Hearing with my lawyer. I'm so tired of it all. BF:hug:

Me BP
 

How did it go yesterday? Are you OK? BF:hug:

BJ
 

Haven't heard a thing from you in several day's. Are you OK? BF:hug::hug:

Dear Friend,
I too hope that she is in good hands and on her way to recovery.

She is receiving big deal treatments every other day with general anesthesia.
Also she could be getting extra drugs after the treatments for such things as headaches and nausea.
She'll be back to us when she is ready.

Mari