*sobbing* I can't listen to anymore, his father is adament he not go to a group home but yet unable to walk the walk that will keep him out of one. It's so frustrating, I am going to see about what will happen if I leave, I can't take anymore.....*sobs and wipes the tears from her cheeks feeling so horribly pathetic and inadequate*

Oh pammy I am so sorry that you are having to go thru all of this.
I wish I could help you....:(

Sorry, Pam.
You are a smart, brave, and strong women and not at all like his is trying to make you feel.
:hug:

Pam you are far from pathetic and inadequate. You are in a tough situation. It is very hard when a child you love is involved and the man you love and have been with for so long is not who you want him to be. You carry a lot of unnecessary guilt. You are the only one who can deal with that. We all know nothing we can say can change that. We are here for you for whatever and whenever you need us.

Don't beat yourself up over this. You will get there in your own time. It took a long time to get where you are, it will take a while to get to where you need to be.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{BIG GIGANTIC HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

'Sending hugs.
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M.

Thanks everyone, I hope that things go well today, I am decided on what to do, but I don't like it. I doubt they will offer what I need to take this job, but the interview will be good experience so I am definitely going. I feel a lot better after a good night's sleep. I don't feel nearly as badly as I did before bed last night, but I am sick of cycling like I feel I have been from way up there to down low. It's really maddening. :(

I think they will keep my resume ad application active for six months so if by then Jackie is in a group home, then I can go and hopefully get this job. Or else go back to school. One or the other. I really appreciate you all being so supportive, it's really helped me through this. :)

once my cousin's son was sent to a boarding school for kids with special needs he was finally able to make some friends...and progress-good luck with the interview
I also did my internship as a psychologist in a children's psychiatric hospital and the kids' made friends.

you go girl! just going is great. you will be dressed up and feeling good. soak in all the compliments.

be sure you follow up with a thank you card to the one who interviews, you. they will remember you.

:hug:

Pam,
I hope that you enjoyed the interview.
M.

how did it go today?
bizi