Sometimes my mood is OK,even though my emotions are hurting a little. All of a sudden I feel like I'm going under,and I feel like I'm super depressed,or grieved,and hurting very bad on the inside,and in some sort of emotional down spiral that's hard to explain.

Then sometimes I think of most anything that is a problem,and I can't stand it. If the obsessions are up,I can't get my mind off certain things.

Then all of the sudden I feel better until the dread comes back.

Now my family wants me to transfer into social services suddenly.

The only people who talk to me are the mental health people in this state,and you all on NeuroTalk. I still have not received a counselor.

Thank you all for listening.

I don't know who else to talk to. I haven't called the emergency hotline in a week.

I'm worried that I'll lose the support that I have on here,because of what I'm going through.

I don't know what to do but write.

I don't know how long I'm going to live here.

I don't know anything about my future anymore.

I'm holding on to my faith as well as I can.

I feel like a burden to everyone sometimes.

I guess I'm going through a rougher time then usual.

I'm not getting any moral support or love from my Dad,or sister,for the first time in my life. My mother died about a year,and one half ago.

I feel so alone,and wonder why my family at the same time doesn't care any more. This weighs down on me. I can't help it.

I don't know how to deal with it.

I'm just seeking some love,and comfort from you all. That's all. BF