Hi folks,

Just thought I would drop in and say hello and a quick catch up for you all. Sorry I have not been online of late and I have no idea who is doing what and how others are getting on.

I am in hospital at the moment and it looks like I am set to remain here for another 5 weeks, I have already been here 3 weeks following a suicide attempt with an overdose of seroquel which left me with no control over my body movements for 12 hours or so, I took enough I thought to knock a horse out, however I was wrong, I did call someone for help - more a call to cancel a date under the assumption that I would already be dead by then.

My new pdoc has me on a whole new combination of medication including lithium and I have had a confirmation diagnosis of Bi Polar I together with PTSD which he cannot treat until my mood has stabilised. So I am going to lots of group therapy and other classes which are run at the hospital and I must say that this has been a long time coming. I hope that they are able to fix me so that I don't actually succeed one day in killing myself which for those bi polars out there should know the statistics are one in six. Shocking isn't it, well it looks like after the fourth attempt someone is still looking after me in a spiritual sense, I guess I am lucky, I don't want to push that luck but there are times in the past when that was the only option that I could see.

All the best,
Boxer

Dear Boxer,
Thank goodness you made that phone call and got to a hospital.
You sound like you feel safe there and that the staff and docs are doing a good job. I hope so.
Things are going to look good from here.
Mari

((((boxer))))

i'm glad you made that call and are getting help. we have a real good group of support on survivors of suicide forum here.http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=29

keep posting when you can boxer and when you feel up to it. we care and are here for you. pm box is always open.

dear Boxer
tho we havent met before I am real glad to hear you are safe there at the hospital

((((Boxer))))

Boxer, I'm so glad you failed in your suicide attempt and didn't have lasting disabilities from taking that overdose. Please know that we care about you and are glad you're getting the help you need.

You know it's ok to need help, to need people...especially when we feel as helpless as a turtle on it's back. gentle hugs.

{{{Boxer}}}

I am so glad you are okay. Warm thoughts your way.

befuddled2

It is good to know that you are safe, and being taken care of. Good that they have therapy at the hospital too - really important: i hope that you emerge stronger than ever.

~ waves ~ from across the wire

I am so sorry you were pushed to the limits but thank goodness you are okay now...your feelings must have been so overwhelming....I do believe in golden safety nets and that at times we are given more than we can bear...then a golden safety net appears....it has happened to me now more than a few times and has given me the courage to persevere no matter how I am feeling...
Bobby

Dear Boxer,
This must be all so unreal for you.

I am so terribly sorry that you have been struggling so...
i wish you did not have to suffer like this.
Thank you for posting here...we want to be a support for you as you make baby steps along the way.
Please be careful with yourself as you are a gift....to be cherished.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Dear Bizi
that was so beautiful and SO TRUE
bobby