Dear BP,
Find a therapist who can help you fill out a mood chart each week.

Then find a new pdoc, one who will work with you at your own pace.

I'm sorry that you went through this. I had a few traumatizing appointments with mdocs who were not patient.

Mari

How awful that must have been.
I remember my first therapisst...I kept talking and talking and she never said anything....after many sessions of this....I finally blew up at her and ran into the bathroom crying and was hysterical...wanted to know when I was going to start feeling better...
she said in time.
Please know that you are walking in the shoes of many others before you and that this is a proces of understanding and acceptance...which will not come over night.
It took me years to finally accept this.
Be patient with yourself....
keep posting.
Start journalling...you can work on things at home then report back to your therapist or pdoc with your work.
hang in there....
we are here for you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

thought i'd leave these here for you too mebp

I think it is time to find a new p-doc. There is no excuse for him/her talking to you in that way.

You need to find a p-doc that you feel comfortable with.

Good Luck, Hugs, Nikko

Just wondered how you were doing today?
hang in there...it does get better....
small baby steps....
find people who make you feel good about yourself and surround yourself with them...stay away from people who don't.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

We had it out yesterday good and proper. I told him he had no right to not let me talk about what I wanted to. I tried to explain that I am trying but it's been a lot harder than I thought. He was very upset that I left and I told him how would you feel? He said I have to try harder to accept it and if I am not willing to work with him that he can't help me. He also said I shouldn't have been taking steriods without consulting him. Is that my problem? I think my primary should have checked. I just do what they say. So I hung up.

I just went to pick up my Abilify and Effexor at the pharmacy and there's nothing there. The pharmacist said he never called it in. Now I'm out of everything. I'll keep calling and calling until I find out what he's doing.

((((((BJ)))))),

He CAN'T just leave you hanging with no medications. That's bordering on malpractice. You can go into serious withdrawals if you don't take your Effexor.

If he feels that he can't work with you (or you with him), then he needs to make sure that you're set up with someone else or at least make sure that your medications are taken care of by someone (primary care doctor??) until you get hooked up with someone else.

I hope you get this worked out. I'm sorry he turned out to be one more aggravation on top of others.

Take care of yourself. BIG HUGS. Call your primary care physician if you can't get in touch with this guy. I take Effexor and I went into horrendous withdrawals within 7 days of not taking it last winter when I couldn't get to the pharmacy because of the weather.

Barb

PS: Oh, one more thing about the steroids. I go into HUGE RAGES for about two weeks after getting epidural steroid injections for my back. Other people in the spinal disorders disorders forum have mentioned having the same results. If you just started the 'roids, that could be seriously affecting you temperament and your ability to cope. MORE HUGS.

Dear Me BP,
Do you have some Effexor left?
Ask the pharmacist about how to taper it.

I hope that you will be all right.
Are you still on the steroids? Lots of drs don't care about intereactions with other drugs or with side effects. They want you to take their prescriptions.
Mari