I don’t know whether to scream or cry. My appointment today with my psych was absolutely horrible. I walked in in tears and left in tears. He had the nerve to tell me that I have to “accept” that this is my life. He was upset that I didn’t have my mood journal filled out correctly. I can’t fill it out because I don’t know how I feel. Gosh I don’t even know who I am anymore let alone track it. I started to talk about my mom and he said this is not about your mom it’s about you. He said you’re bipolar and keep repeating it to yourself because you’re in denial. Vent, scream whatever you want but yes you are bipolar.

The tears started to flow and I walked out. The office called and said to increase the Abilify to 20mg. Whoopee!! I tried to explain that I don’t think it’s helping but no response. I feel myself falling and I don’t want to go there again. Will I go back there? I doubt it.