Nikko,
I hope that things improve for you.
'Sending lots of hugs.
M.

I'm sorry to hear that. It sound's like the drinking that he's doing is sparking his immaturity. That drinking causes so much heartache for so many. I hope that things are better soon. BF

Hi,
I met with my Domestic Violence counsler yesterday, which helped. I have to call this other person on Monday that takes care of helping women move out of situations of abuse.
Breaking this lease is no problem, due to the situation. I will have to fill out some paperwork.
I was given a list of places to look into to live, or if I find someplace else that I can afford.
They give you the money for the first and last months rent, if I qualify.

Then the moving is on me. They have to make sure I am able to pay the rent and the other expenses on my income, before they approve anything. Like electric, cable, food, car ins. Etc.

I hope to get an appointment soon with the women who takes care of living situations for abused women. Plus, I see my DV counsler again next week.

In the mean time, I will go look at these places on the list and see what I can come up with. The list has the ones that accept dogs too. She also told me to look over in mid-town, between the East side where I live now, to mid town which is half way to downtown. Not a great area, but they have some small cute houses with yards, it is cheaper over there. That is just a hit or miss, depending on if you see a sign for rent.

Dirk is all nice nice, but I am not buying it, at all. I only speak when spoken to, no conversations with him. He keeps saying how he loves me and all this crap, well you don't treat a person like he has when you love them. He has no idea of any of this. Nor will he until everything is set in stone, then when he see's me packing and the move day, I will call the police if I have to, he has to let me go.

Moving..............have to figure out how I will do that once everything is in place. I will only take the things that are mine and that I need. So, I won't have any living room furniture, but not worried about that now.

He has to work the rest of this week, then he is off the weekend, which I dread.

Hugs, Nikko

This sounds so hard on you.
I am glad that your DV counselor is helping you sort out these things, exactly what you needed, someone on your side to help you.
It sounds like you will get the assistance youneed and good luck finding just the right place for you and your fur babies and feathered family.
You can do this, you are doing this,
keep up your spirits,
we are here to provide support and give you encouragement.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thanks, it's just more stress, but I have no choice, I need to get strong and do this for my sanity and my babies.

I just pray I get the approval. My DV counsler said what he is doing is actually criminal.

One day at a time for now. I dread the weekend as I said, so far he hasn't drank, but now that he knows he is not getting the response he wants from me, I am sure he will be drinking by the weekend.

I am just so sad and depressed, but I am dealing with it the best I can.

It just seems to be one thing after another lately, wearing me down.

Hugs, Nikko

I'm so sorry this has happened.

I am proud of you for seeing the "ugly stuff" as soon as it showed up again.

I am so proud of you for not allowing yourself to be fed excuses, and for not buying into the periodic demure behaviour.

I am proud of you for acting to get yourself out of this situation, and for facing the difficulties and uncertainties involved in that.

I am very proud of you for being so strong.

You are going strong, in the midst of adversity or better said... crises of all kinds.

I am hoping and praying for your safety and that of your dear animal family.

I thought i could, but instead find i am unable to be present here much. I am still very edgy about it ... more at times than at others. so please do keep me posted when you send updates that way.

Anyway, i am here right now, so figured i'd post to you here.

You hang in there!



~ waves ~

Waves puts is so right.

I think its perfectly said.

Donna