I’m not even sure what a trigger is but I feel like someone is pointing one at me right now. I’m just feeling so overwhelmed, hurt, angry, sad I’m not even sure which anymore. I haven’t been out of the house, didn’t go to church, which I always do. Now I have to go to confession which always terrifies me. I haven’t slept or eaten anything and the tears won’t stop. My dad has been on my mind and all these thoughts are going through my head. I guess I’m having a good old fashioned pity party. I hate being like this, I hate this disease and I’m not liking myself real well right now. This depression is robbing me of light and I wish more than anything this is just a bad, bad nightmare and I’ll wake up (if I ever sleep) and everything will be okay.

Oh but I've started back on Effexor today so that's going to make everything fine right? If only it was that easy. I need sleep desperately.

Dear MeBP,
Things need to get better for you soon.
What meds did your pdoc give you to help you sleep?
The effexor should help with your depression.

Try not to blame yourself. It's not your fault that you feel crummy right now.

Do you have a pdoc? (Sorry, can't remember). If you do, call on Monday about the sleep and depression and anxiety.



Mari

hey
Glad that you are starting back on the effixor..did your reg doc end up writing the script or the old pdoc? just curious....who ever did it took too long!
I am sorry that you are feeling so depressed...this is a terrible way to feel...I don't feel that way very often but when I do...it is awful.
Could you make yourself go out and take a walk. No goal in mind...just a stroll. the fresh air might make you feel a bit better...or maybe jsut a hot bath....let the water surround you and protect you...it really does help to soothe me...kind of like when we were in our mothers womb surrounded by warm water.
do you have any pets?
I know that i really enjoy petting my cats when I am not feeling well.
Does your doctor know the extent of your not sleeping? this alone can trigger us to mania if we are not careful.
keep posting...we care...
bizi

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Nikko

MeBP,

I hope you feel better today.

Hugs to you.

befuddled2

My primary wrote the script for the Effexor. My primary is not one for getting back real soon and I threated to plop myself in the ER until she helped me with this. I just have to get through these next few days until I see a new pdoc on Friday. She wouldn't give me anything to help me sleep (long story) so I'm exhausted both physically and emotionally.

hugs for bj
((((HUGS))))
bizi
I think that is negligent that she is not addressing your sleeplessness....

MeBP,

I'm sorry that you are feeling blue. I hope that you can get some relief for the problems you are having with your sleep soon. My primary won't prescribe anything except antibiotics and leaves the rest of the stuff for the specialists. It would be nice if he/she could give you enough to make it until you see your pdoc, though. This is more than just frustrating.

I hope you can get some of this straightened out on Friday.

Sending good thoughts your way.

Hamster

My appointment is at 1PM and I hope I can open up and get some of these feelings out. I've slept only about 4 hours in three nights. I know it's the racing thoughts again because I've stopped all my meds.

No Bizi I'm glad she didn't because that was my way "out" before and I don't a full script around. Hence my reason for posting in SOS. My primary said maybe she can control it and only allow me to have so many at a time.

Dear BP,
I hope that the appointment went well.
mari