[Pamster]

I wish things were better but they aren't. I have to get my crap together and somehow be ready to move in 26 days. Jackie still isn't listening well and I just feel like I wish I could magically BE there at Mom's now. JAck isn't being mean anymore obviously, he's not gonna keep that up after getting it out of his system. At least he better not. Jackie is driving a RC car all around the house and it's driving me nuts! It's really loud and annoying, but hopefully the battery will wear down in a few minutes. *Sigh*

I don't know what I am gonna do with all my stuff if it won't fit in a storage unit, I hope I can get one for cheap enough. I am just wondering if I should stay longer and give mom and her hubby more time to get ready. Though they've know I am coming for months now, now I am totally ready, enough is fully enough. I don't know how I am going to make it through this, but somehow I will....Somehow...

[Dmom3005]

Pam

I am afraid you are not going to be completely ever ready. So I would
think you should just continue to get ready and be resigned to the fact
that you are going to have misgivings. As time goes on its going to
be harder and harder to let go with Jackie.

So maybe work through with his workers how it can be worked out
so that you have time with him. And how if things with Jack don't
work out that he has a place to go.

I think its really something that you can help get put in place now.

Donna

[Pamster]

I already let the workers know last week about this situation deterorating and they are aware of the situation. I now have to tell them of my intentions and timeline and help Jack get set up to take care of Jackie. That's my goals for them. TO get them settled so they can make it here, I don't know how he's gonna do it on his own but he will manage somehow or else Jackie will have to go into foster care...

[Abbie]

I have Country, Rock, Contemporary Christian, and various others on my I-Pod... still have lots of room to add more...

I LOVE ALL kinds of music so it's easy to find something to listen to.

Today has been a very loooooooong day. All I have wanted to do is sleep... I haven't been able to really sleep....woke up every few minutes...


Abbie

[Pamster]

Wow, I am really feeling overwhelmed by things, but talking to Mom helped, she makes me feel strong like talking to my therapist does. I was crying my eyes out earlier and hurting from a neck crushing hug from Jackie. My Monitor died and Jack pulled out another one we had and set it up for me so I didn't have much downtime. It's gonna be hard when something goes wrong next time and I am at mom's, but that's what tech support is for. I figure I'll have to buy another moniter, a flatscreen one. But that will have to wait until I am out and have the money to do so. Just hope this one lasts that long...

[Mari]

Dear Pam,
Moving stuff really stinks. Even when people are happy about the move, they are not ready to move their things. So just go with what you have decided and know that it is going to stink for awhile until after you are settled.

That's good that your Mom is being supportive.

Mari

[Mari]

Dear Abbie,

I like most types of music too.
I hope that you get lots of sleep soon.
M.

[Nikko]

Better later than never...............My weekend was not very exciting.

Mostly, watched football, relaxed hung out with my dogs and Dirk, although my team the Miami Dolphins lost.

Talked to friends/and my cousin back East.

Did some cooking, didn't go out, just a quick trip to the store with Dirk.

We have another storm up in the mountains, so its dreary and rainy this morning, but supposed to clear by noon.

Dreading tomorrow's appointment with Neurosurgeon for my back.

Wish I had some exciting news.

Trying to think positive, still feeling depressed and stressed.

Nikko

[Pamster]

I am so confused, Jack and I were talking and now I feel like I should stay. I am just not able to stand by my decision. I hate myself right now.

[Dmom3005]

Pam

If you let him Jack will either guilt you into staying or talk you into it.

You have to decide if its best for you. For now I would make him
start doing the things you do. See if he can take over Jackie's care
and not expect you to take it back.

Or maybe even can you live both places, that way you can have breaks.

Donna