[waves]

there is a stormtide rising and falling within me

i can't seem to do much about it. i do not want to be more precise about it it i would have to use the trigger thingy so 'nuff said. point is....

sorry if some of my posts are highhanded and upset you or are offputting.

fyi, in this 'tide' i am hypersensitive and some posts (or absence of them) easily may upset me right now. then i am very reactive (too much).

i will try not to post but am also very impulsive.

again i'm sorry if i upset anyone.

i will try to be better, if nothing else, about staying away until the storm breaks. it is ironic that when i most need support i am in least condition to receive because i might bite a hand or two off that is set in front of me, even if it contains food on occasion. now i am crying.

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thanks to those of you who have in any way attempted to provide support to me during recent bad times, and

special apologies if i have not responded well.... or not responded at all. i have been erratic.

bye for a while hopefully in a sad stupid, ironic way.

storm ~ waves ~

[gardengrl]

Ohhhh, I'm sorry you are feeling this very low, deep, feeling of pain...You are doing good to post! If it offends anyone, they don't have to read....You are entitled to your emotions regardless of them being good, bad or ugly. That's what emotions are.
If you need an ear, I will listen. You can pm me anytime. NO TRIGGER THINGIES PLEASE!

[mymorgy]

don't worry or try not to worry. i really understand. i am there too
Love
Bobby

[waves]

i soon may not be able to...

i have made a special request for temporary voluntary suspension of posting privileges. it would resolve the impulsivity issue.

my request was a personal one and is pending but if specific conditions are possible it could happen one minute to the next. should this suspension be effected you would not see me post at all or even leave "thanks" acknowledgements, depending whether and how this is implemented.

the duration is indeterminate at this juncture, due to my condition.

[gardengrl]

Well I don't know you, & I believe it is my loss. I hope you come back soon or actually don't leave. Take good care either way!

[Curious]

Waves...everyone...

We are going to do what is best for waves.

[Mari]

Waves,
You don't have to worry about us.

Is it ok that I am worried about you?
Please be ok.

Lots of hugs.


M.

[Cambriajo]

Years ago I was diagnosed with bi-polar, then called manic depression. Drugs did nothing. Finally I reluctantly underwent ECT (shock) treatments. Today I function. Do I still have bad times? Yes. Are they the deepest darkest of yesterday? No. I've just yesterday started a blog about my experiences.

Cambriajo

[maggie2]

~waves~ just took you as my friend and need you to stay as a friend. Through God and prayer all things can be worked out. I will give you your space as you sound like you need it. Just don't do anything to harm yourself. Things can always be worked out even in the darkest hour of our lifes. I cannot say *I know how you feel cause I have not walked in your shoes* But I can say *I am praying for you n God bless you* I am sure we would all agree to a Group I care...and...so do others!

[Pamster]

Oh waves, I am so sorry you're going through this right now. It's not easy to try to fight for an even head, goodness knows I am struggling with it too, but just know like the others I am worrying about you and wishing you strength to overcome this rough spot you're going though.