Oh Dear Barbara I'm so sorry. Hang in there!
 

OMG. i read the thread just a bit earlier and posted just now before i saw this. had to delete my post. boy was i "off." oh i am soooo sorry. :(
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i don't know what to say. anyway, if nothing else, it's over.

allow yourself to cry. it is something you need to go through, yes. but crying also produces endorphins which will give you natural relief. i think the beers just took the edge off that let you feel depression that was there already, and pain you were holding back on. but letting it out is better than drinking it away.

you will be moving... at SOME point. 5 years down the road, this will be an experience you will be proud of. Going to court without representation is no joke. That lawyer that quacked out on you man, that just makes me steam.

Anyway, it IS over. just be with whatever you feel, and that will be the best way to deal. you WILL feel better.

when you feel better, i want to ask what this means - your losing - what does that entail... but don't worry about posting that until you feel like it. it is real late here and i have to go to bed right now. but i'm thinking of you.

today i had a spell where i was kinda bummed out... i won't get into it but i remembered a line from Led Zep... ususally towards ppl who do me wrong... "Your time is gonna come."

But today i thought, hey, hopefully one day, my time is gonna come... for something good to happen. so i will leave you with that thought... in the POSITIVE sense... things may suck now, and may have for a long time... but... Your time is gonna coooome.... a time for you to blossom and grow. The pain is a part of the journey. Nothin' says it's here to stay.
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~ waves ~

Thanks.

Bringing up the fact I went to court without representation is a great feat that I should be proud of. I did at least try and yes it is over for the time being. I do not plan to file any more complaints while renting from this landlord but after I move I intend to shake some feathers. I have some ideas.

The judge ruled in favor of the landlord saying that I have no proof that the wild cats on the property spread fleas on the property. The judge also said that I can not file a complaint when there is no problem with the fleas now. The judge said that I can not charge my landlord now for something that may or may not happen in warm weather. He said I may or may not have a case in the warm weather. I had told the judge how the fleas bite me and I scratch the bites in my sleep and get scars. There is a flea problem here where I live every year for as long as people can remember. I did not ague with the judge as he was somewhat a jerk.

You know, I am an animal lover as most people are. But when wild cats have more rights than a human it is a crying shame. I'm not sorry for saying that. I have been the object of verbally harassing from a lot of people all over for just wanting to not have to deal with fleas every year. I've been told things like I have a pretty lame excuse if I want the cats gone because I get bit by fleas to what about cat's rights?

B.,
Yuck about the feral cats around spreading fleas. http://bestsmileys.com/cats1/8.gif
The poor things need a proper home.
M.

Yes I agree. the cats do need a proper home. It is not only what they do by spreading fleas and desease but it's also not nice what they have to endure. Most people for the wild cats can not see how terrible it is for the cats to be out in all kinds of weather, be infested with fleas and such.

I feel terrible today and am going to cancel my appt. with my nurse pratitioner. There's no way I can make it.