Originally Posted by Strhuntrss

Used to be self sufficient, working full time and very active. Now ... well, not self sufficient, work at least three days a week four hours a day, and not so active when in pain.

I used to push through like most of us have done. But I have found that anymore when I push to make others happy, I can't be happy myself,

Pain has a hold on my body daily. I deal with the bad days as best I can, and enjoy the good days and hope that there are more of them than bad.

I used to say that someone else always has it worse than I and remind myself not to complain. BUT lately I can't help to say I am sorry to others.

My husband hates it when I say Im sorry. He says what are you sorry for? I say for being in pain and feeling like a broken record, same ole same old day after day.

I hope you can find the relief you need from your pain. I haven't found mine just yet. Neurontin and ultram by day and muscle relaxers by night just don't seem enough. Exercise when I can and take naps during the day helps.

Never thought that hiding pain was so much work. So let others know you are in pain, they might be able to take the load off you for a while. Get the relief you need and keep on keeping on.

Originally Posted by St George 2013

[Gabapentin] doesn't do much for the pain but really helps me think straight which does help me manage the pain better...

Originally Posted by Dr. Smith

WOW I think you're the first person I've ever heard say that! (the thinking straight part) Usually (self included), I read/see something about gabapentin/brain/memory fog and/or memory loss. The stuff affected my ability to think/focus/reason/recall so badly I couldn't function effectively or tolerably. I still have after-effects from it (and others) years later.

If only, if only...

[Please don't read anything into this; I'm happy for anyone who can find relief from pain or its effects.]

Doc