[ConsiderThis]

I haven't read any of my PMs here, yet. But some people wrote to me using my email address, to them (and everyone):

You know, it wasn't the mean post that made me leave as much as it was the idea of moderators ... the way they were at Brain Talk 1... I just began thinking that the mean post was done with the intention of having moderators installed, with that in turn leading to me being targeted in a much more destructive, but apparently acceptable, way.

See, I can understand an individual being mean spirited... bad day, more pain, outlet.

But the moderator thing at BrainTalk1 was so... hurtful, to say the least. Because, I think, it "seemed" to represent a consensus.

On the other hand, I've been thinking about how there are moderators on pbs, and while they delete posts periodically, and there are several people who have new names, presumably because the old name has been banned, overall I don't feel threatened by the mods there.

But then, pbs isn't a forum where you actually get particularly close to people. I mean, someone posted a quite nice poem for me the other day, and someone may be bringing me some worms for my garden, but overall it's an argumentative place where people often choose to be one-dimensional.

Going on from yesterday:
I got sick when I left; the stress, I think, caused it. I really liked so many people on BT2. So if I got as sick as I did after only a few days of bonding... what would it be like if I were there a long time and then the people were organized and were trying to get me out... that would be worse.

I mean, how do we know that the moderators from BT1 are not among the moderators on BT2? They were secret, as it were, on BT1.. so how do we know?

Do you know?