Dear MrsD-I cried when I saw the page of Stargazers,the I cried some more when I saw that you took the time to make me an avatar!!!!!!! Such a sweet thing for you to do! As soon as my husband is on days off, he is going to set it up for me, so I can use it!! Thanks again!!

I'm just now reading this thread..and my heart aches for you prairiemary.

((((((Mary)))))))

I was able to add the avatar that mrsD made for you

DEAREST CHEMAR! I have been leaving messages with my nt friends,trying to find out who did this for me!! How can I ever,ever thank you? The nicest gift I could ever wish for,a stargazer for my Amy! Thanks,thanks,thanks!!Does mrsD know you did this for me,from the lilly she sent to me? I am sure she will me happy that you did it! I am not yet smart enough to do things like that on my computer,but I will keep learning.Thanks again!

I can totally relate. September 14th was the 9th anniversary of our daughter's death, she was 16 and was taking a shower when she collapsed and died instantly. We still don't know why. My husband also planted stargazer lilies and we consider them to be Courtney's flower.
My son is getting married in November and I'm making the wedding flowers. I'm adding a silk stargazer into each bouquet.

I am soo sorry that you lost your daughter-I know how you feel. I always wonder,is it easier when you have the time to say goodbye,or is it easier all of a sudden,but have decided both ways are awful.Has your husband been by your side thru your grief,and has it affected your marraige somehow? The stargazer connection is so ironic! I am sure that when you are making the wedding flowers,you will have tears,but I think that is such a special way to include your daughter in your son's special day! Do you have other children?I have 2 other daughters,and now have 2 grandsons,but it does not take away the pain of loosing my Amy.

PrairieMary, Yes, my husband has been with me ever since Courtney's death. Our grief has brought us closer, we just celebrated our 30th anniversary and Courtney has been gone for 9 years now. It's so hard to believe that she's been gone that long. Yes, I agree... I will be crying the whole time I'm making the flowers, and as I watch the bride walk down the aisle.
Courtney and Chris (my son) were my only children. I lost four other babies due to miscarriages. You're right, having other children doesn't take the pain away. And sometimes it kind of makes it worse because you remember what you are missing. The family is incomplete.

Hugs to your PrairieMary... we can so relate to what each other is feeling.

((prairiemary)) I'm so very sorry for your loss.