Originally Posted by Mykinzie

Hello and good morning. Im new here and wanted to reply to a post to be supportive of someone else losing a child. My baby son, Kory, died of SIDS and I have never been the same since. Life can go on though. Years later, today, I do realize that life can go on, and yes, I can be happy again. If nothing else, for the rest of my life, i want to be here to help other parents that have lost a child. My belief is that we were not created to lose our own children before we ourselves go. This does happen though. i did used to believe that my own life couldnt or shouldnt go on then. Like, what kind of mother was I if I couldnt keep my very own baby alive? Today I realize that this is not the case. This is not reality. I did my very best. I'm not physically able to be connected to my son, 24/7. And yes, today I realize I was and am a good mother. I had a 14 month old son also at the time Kory died and later on, I went on to have three more children that are all very healthy and doing well to this day. The hardest thing for me was forgiving myself and realizing that I was a wonderful mother to Kory. Things just happen beyond our control sometimes. For the rest of my life now, it's important to me to help someone else in the position I used to be in. I myself was suicidal for years after my baby son died. In time, I healed. My life has changed though. I still suffer PTSD (post tramautic stress syndrome) from this day. I am still on medication to get me through it. It also helps me to realize that I am not alone. I am very grateful to all the people in my life who have shared there own personal stories of losing a child with me. This has helped me to heal more and realize that I'm not alone and that we all need support to get through tramatic events like this. Once again, i am here for anyone needing to share a similar story. Just needing someone to listen to them, so they know that someone cares, and there are people out there who care about us. Use these people to confide in. We all need each other at different times in our lives, no matter what the situation is..........Sincerely, Mykinzie