My Grandfather passed away in July 2010 and not a day goes by that I dont think about him. It is so hard without him. I still cant believe that he is gone. He was everything to me.

You poor thing. I know what your going through. I was crushed when my grandma passed away.

august 29th my grandpa passed away. him and my grandmother raised me. he was more than a father to me. he was my guidence. my strenth. he thought me so much about how to love and respect everyone. he thought me how to be a strong woman, but also a little old fashioned. his presence in my life made me who i am today. just 2 weeks before he passed he attented my daughters birthday and was so happy. once i was married and had children they carried on the tradition of spending every weekend with them. he was sick. but nothing that i thought he wouldnt pull out of. unfortunately they did a procedure to remove a large amount of blood from his heart. he had to be brought back several times. he was in a coma for 10 days before God took him home. it is a horrible battle that my whole family struggles with every singe day. my children ask about him constantly. and my grandmother, such an amazing and one of a kind person is the strongest most caring woman ever. she is always asking how we r doing. i havent figured out how to cope with it. i have periods of anger, severe depression and disbelief. i cant believe he isnt here. i dont understand what happened. i miss him. he was a wonderful man of God and was proud to be a pastor for almost 30 years. he didnt just help all of our family, he helped thousands through out his life. he was the most genorous loving person. i dont know what to do to ease this pain and and anger i feel.

dearest princess,

I am sorry to hear about your loss. I understand the hole you feel in your heart. I lost my mom in 1999 when I was 28. I just lost my nana who was my other mother in January of this year. so, now I have two deep holes in my heart. all I can tell you is that the holes never go away, but it gets easier with time. I still have days when I am hysterical about my mom's lost. it is something you have to learn to live with as the emotions wax and wane. it is creating a new normal for yourself that includes living life with the memories of those we lost to help fill the void of your loss and losses. it is okay to cry and mourn when you need to. but, I promise it will get better especially if you focus on the good memories when you are at your lowest points of despair. if you ever need to talk privately, feel free to private message me. I send you many hugs and my best wishes. I hope this post helps you realize your feelings are completely normal. perhaps the advice I gave you will help get you through the difficult times. take care and be well.

sincerely,
sloane

Sorry about that, it is very hard at the beginning when you start to remember all the good and nice things. Just you know that you cannot continue like this. Do good things for him, pray for him, tell people how nice he was and continue your life as usuall.