Dearest Jaycojade-I have not been on here for a few years now, been suffering from many things, just shut myself off from people, in all areas of my life. This Sept.11-2012, will be 10 years since I lost my Amy, to a rare type of cancer. She was just 20 when she died, so much life ahead of her. I can tell you that, though it may be hard for you to believe, that it will get better for you. The first couple of years, I began sobbing less, and crying instead. There is a big difference between the two. She would have turned 30 last month. This spring was the first time that I was able to go through her clothes and things that have been packed away, and put things of hers into boxes, to give to someone who can use them. It has taken my nearly a decade, but I am able to finally do it. I know she went straight to Heaven, the second she died, and is looking down on me, and her sisters. She is not suffering. I can only tell you that it will, and it does get somewhat easier, as time goes on. I wish you peace. I am sorry that justice has not been done, and will pray that it will. Stay strong.

Hello prairiemary, and welcome back to NeuroTalk.

You say that you've not been here for a few years now, so thank you for checking in .......... it's so nice to to see you here although I don't think we met last time you visited. I am sorry to read about the passing of your beautiful daughter and I'm sure these past 10 years must have been just terrible for you.

It's been a little while since Jaycojade visited, but I do hope that she logs in some time soon to see your post, because I'm sure it would give her hope.

It's nice to have a post from you prairiemary, and I do hope that you're ready now to rejoin us.

prairiemary;
Thanks for ur kind words & ur support. I lost my younger sister to 3 kinds of cancer (brain, bone & lung)-- such a horrible, horrible disease. It'll be 7 years next month, on the 30th that she passed away. She would of been 56 next month on the 19th. I think of her everyday (same as my dad & my younger brother & of course, my son Troy). His birthday was a few weeks ago on the 6th. He would of been 38. I thank you so much for ur prayers. It's hard & even harder with my youngest son into drugs & problems with the law. I just go day by day & pray alot.
Again I thank you & I wish you peace & strength also.