So sorry to hear of you mother's passing.
When my grandfather died it would hit me at odd times, like whenever the Judd's "grandpa song" came on the radio...
Took a couple of months for the triggering things to stop getting to me.

If you feel, things are getting the best of you talking with a doctor, is a good idea.

The sticky thread at the top of this forum should have info on the steps of grief that might be helpful for you.
here - http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread3044.html

I'm so sorry. Sending you a hug.

Thank you all for your comments, I am reading the link on grieving , I really need to let myself know that it is ok to cry (even though i feel drained afterwards) I also have been taken by the way it hits me for no reason the last couple days, but I am just going with it. I will wait and decide tomorrow if i need to get back on Celexa for a short time, for now I am doing my best, I cried today and walked in the back yard and let it out, I felt anger (but did not know what for) but allowed myself to feel it, hitting the wall but not hard enough to hurt myself. the one positive is when I use to hold feelings in i would get Panic Attacks and now i am just letting it out and it does feel good, again thanks for the support it means the world to me.