Debi

I totally understand the way you're feeling. All the what if's and should of's. I replayed the day of his passing and all the days before over and over in my head hoping to find some sort of explanation for it all.

I finally had to accept the fact that the date and time he passed was exactly what was meant to be. It took a while before I could actually say that to myself. It's been 14 years and it's still front and center in my mind. It's gotten easier for me to think about but it's still difficult in it's own way.

Feeling guilty about still being here and the fact that we could do nothing to change the course of fate is difficult to say the least. It's so hard not to try and find a "reason why". One day we'll have all the answers. That is the only thing I am sure of and don't have to question.

Hang in there and know that we're here for you.