As Christmas is almost upon us, I am concerned about how I am going to take Cristmas the first year, without him. I will be invited places, but if your thoughts are with your loved one, what do you do? Do you tell the world or suffer in silents? I mostly just talk about him on the boards. Mostly the family don't seem to know what to say, so they don't mention that much about him.
My husband was the youngest in his family and the first to go. Weeks go by and I don't see his family, nor do they call.

They are having a memorial service and his name will be called at 2 places, different towns. I can't possibly go to both and don't know what to do. A friend told me they are sad and that she cried the whole time she was there. Should I go and maybe cry and get it out? I did at Thanksgiving, the night before. I was ok that day. I guess I need to pray about it, and listen to my heart.

I don't think I could ever meet anyone like my husband. He was a designer and could make anything. Many have said, he was ahead of his time. So many are wanting something of his when I have an auction sale, Jan.1 st. I didn't realized it but he has made things for many people. The auctioneer said our sale will be a big one, because it was "his things". I am a little concerned that it could be bad weather. The auctioneer man said, it won't make a bit of difference. They will be there because he passed away. He did have a lot of friends.

People tell me the first year is the worst. Is this so?
Blessings,
Billie

Hi Billie,

First, I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose my husband. So, I can't say that I know your grief. My heart goes out to you in finding a way to go on without him.
I lost my Mom five years ago, and I still miss her terribly. Yes, the first year was the worst to get through, as it's always the first birthday, or Thanksgiving or Christmas without them but as time goes on, it does get easier.
You are doing the right thing by talking to God and letting your heart find the way. I will say a special prayer for you.
It sounds like your husband was a very loved and skilled man. I know you were very proud of him. I hope the auction goes really good for you.
Talk about your husband as much as you can. It will help you the more you do. Also, I found that crying also helped, (helps). Whatever makes you feel better is what you should do.
I wish you the best.
Take care,
Linda

Hi Billie,

I'm so sorry about your husband. I read your story before and couldn't think what to say. This will be the first Christmas without my mom and the second without my dad. I can't even begin to understand what you are going through. My heart goes out to you and I hope you have people around you that will help you get through this.

I agree with what Linda said too. Talk about him as much as you can and if need me, let the tears flow. Reach out to your church and let them help you through this too.

Prayer is very powerful and I'll certainly keep you in my thoughts and prayers during this most difficult time.

God bless and keep you Billie.

Thanks for replying to my post. I have lost both my parents and don't have brothers or sisters. I am in touch with my first cousins as much as possible. Also have friends and they encourage me to talk about hubby.

At first, I couldn't imagine life wihout him. I am slowing getting use to it. We had lived on a farm for 42 years then I moved to a near by town. I do like town life and know some of the people here, as it is not so far away. The town seems to be a nice one. Life is differene here. The school being 1/2 block away, is a busy place for a while. Them they are the buede

Then there is a highway within a block from, here. It is a busy place, It would be nice if I could get a partime job also. Maybe in time. I have arthritis fairly bad in the winter due to all these operations on my back.
Blessings,
Billie

I am sorry I haven't read your post yet. I have been moving for over a month now and getting read to close the farm up. It is sold to a nice family with two children. God does take good care of me. I first sold 101 acres, then the farm and found a place in town and now an auction coming up Jan. 1 st. Everything is moving on and working for my good too. It is hard each step of the way, but is a process I must go threw.

Thanks for replying and eveyone helps me to think I an on the right track. May God Bless You,
Billie

I know it must have been really hard closing the farm up. These things take time and I'm glad that things are moving along for you. It's a process, a long slow process, but I'm certain that God, and your DH, are guiding you each step of the way.

{{{{{{{{{{Billie}}}}}}}}}

just remember we are here for you billie. good times and bad.

i know you have posted about the auction how well loved your husband was. what a comfort to know that people who cared about him will also care about the posessions you are auctioning.

your strength and courage to start on this new path...it very inspiring.

Yes, I am sure God & DH are guiding me, for sure. Everything I have done has been the right thing to do and it wasn't me. I first sold the farm ground, never advertised it or nothing. I had 2 bidding aganist each other til I sold it. Then I started looking for a place to live. I found a trailer and everybody said don't get one, that they don't hold up. Well I kept looking and came right back to this trailer again. I really like it.
Next I wanted to sell my farm home and the first ones to look at it I liked really well. Another couple looked, but I end up selling to the first couple. We first had some problemms with the price, but they came up and I went down and we made a deal.
Now I am ready for an auction sale. meet with them today. It's going to be Jan. 1 st. They are expecting a large sale. I hope so.
Thanks for responding. I appreciate it. Billie