Thanks for replying to my post. I have lost both my parents and don't have brothers or sisters. I am in touch with my first cousins as much as possible. Also have friends and they encourage me to talk about hubby.

At first, I couldn't imagine life wihout him. I am slowing getting use to it. We had lived on a farm for 42 years then I moved to a near by town. I do like town life and know some of the people here, as it is not so far away. The town seems to be a nice one. Life is differene here. The school being 1/2 block away, is a busy place for a while. Them they are the buede

Then there is a highway within a block from, here. It is a busy place, It would be nice if I could get a partime job also. Maybe in time. I have arthritis fairly bad in the winter due to all these operations on my back.
Blessings,
Billie

I am sorry I haven't read your post yet. I have been moving for over a month now and getting read to close the farm up. It is sold to a nice family with two children. God does take good care of me. I first sold 101 acres, then the farm and found a place in town and now an auction coming up Jan. 1 st. Everything is moving on and working for my good too. It is hard each step of the way, but is a process I must go threw.

Thanks for replying and eveyone helps me to think I an on the right track. May God Bless You,
Billie

I know it must have been really hard closing the farm up. These things take time and I'm glad that things are moving along for you. It's a process, a long slow process, but I'm certain that God, and your DH, are guiding you each step of the way.

{{{{{{{{{{Billie}}}}}}}}}

just remember we are here for you billie. good times and bad.

i know you have posted about the auction how well loved your husband was. what a comfort to know that people who cared about him will also care about the posessions you are auctioning.

your strength and courage to start on this new path...it very inspiring.

Billie,
I pop in this website often, and was very happy to see your name, even though it is under these circumstances. I think of you often, and wondering,
HOW ARE YOU? Did you have your hernia surgery? If you did, how did it go?
I always think of you as being so brave, and admire your faith!
I do not know what you are going through, but I can keep you in my thoughts and prayers. And send you some big cyber
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))) ))))))))))))))))))))).
My mom's husband is in hospice now, and Thanksgiving was hard, but she got through it OK. It is hard to watch her go through this, knowing she is going to be alone soon.
I hope your church makes sure you are not too lonely through the holidays. You can come spend the holidays with my family (we will take you in with open arms) if you would like!
Carolyn

Thank You for the invite. I will be with my husbands family for Christmas. It won't be the same, but I have no choice. We spent the Holidays together for Thanksgiving, only here at my place. I don't mind having them all come here, only Christmas, I don't have a big enough place. I have a double wide, but the family is large. I readly like my new place. I don't like my yard full of tree's because of all the leaves. it has been a nightmare. I am worn out from all the raking today and I hired help.

I got over my hernia operation fine. No problems. It sure wasn't like having back surgery. I am not completely over it yet. I have an appointment Dec. 21.
It to see if I am fusing ok. They haven't check that yet.

Somehow I don't feel brave or full of faith. I do know God did help me threw the back surgery. For when I checked in I didn't have no fear and the same after surgery also. They just couldn't see how I could do so much so quick. It was God, not me. I knew I had a special touch and nothing anyone said made any difference. They even turned my bed alarm on, because I was getting up without any help. I told them I didn't need help. ha! They tried putting me in rehab and nobody had room or they said I wasn't sick enough. I just laughed at them. I really have done well.

I feel for your Mother. I will say a prayer for her that God will give her a special touch & strenght when she needs it.
Thanks for the invite Carolyn. You are so nice.
Blessings,
Billie

Hi Billie, I just was thinking of you and hoping you are doing OK. I do hope your arthritis is not giving you too much pain. I also have it and know just how painful it can be.
Be good to yourself, you deserve it!
Linda

Yes, I am sure God & DH are guiding me, for sure. Everything I have done has been the right thing to do and it wasn't me. I first sold the farm ground, never advertised it or nothing. I had 2 bidding aganist each other til I sold it. Then I started looking for a place to live. I found a trailer and everybody said don't get one, that they don't hold up. Well I kept looking and came right back to this trailer again. I really like it.
Next I wanted to sell my farm home and the first ones to look at it I liked really well. Another couple looked, but I end up selling to the first couple. We first had some problemms with the price, but they came up and I went down and we made a deal.
Now I am ready for an auction sale. meet with them today. It's going to be Jan. 1 st. They are expecting a large sale. I hope so.
Thanks for responding. I appreciate it. Billie