What I really need
Is to find a man
Who can be a man
Someone who can
Support me
Not only financially
But, of course
Emotionally
I really need a man
who is strong
Very strong
And smart
Alot of useless facts
Never did me any good
He needs to be smart
about me
that, I'd be impressed with
What I really need
Is for a man to be a man
To step in and take charge
Of the situation
To do the right thing
To always do what's good
For me
In spite, sometimes, of me
I need someone who gives a crap
Enough to disagree with me
And, take the proper actions
If need be
if I won't do it myself
I really need for a man
to be strong enough
and confident enough
to take care of me
without letting it
diminish, his self-esteem
I really need someone
to help keep me well
instead of just coddling me
when I've become sick again
Because I didn't realize the
Importance of following
Doctor's prefferred orders
Exactly
someone who's smart enough
to make me do the BEST thing
instead of my wishy-washy way
I really need
Someone who's not intimidated
by being in control
a man who can do that
is someone I need
Instantly
It would mean
that I could finally
RELAX
because it would also mean
that I could always trust
that everything would be ok
right now, I don't have that
trust in anyone
especially, myself
I guess no one gives a crap enough
or maybe their brains are all on vacation...

(sorry for the rant, just sick of being sick-I'm having symptoms again, because I got on a new med, and did not cross-taper because my ins. was maxed-out, and I was dumb enough, to not ask my mom for the money. I realize, the way I presented it though to everyone was in a way that they wouldn't have known, either.)