[lucyjasp]

I can't make it. I try to talk to people but they always shun me. I even fear talking on here because i don't want to face the same hatred i get from everyone. I don't want medication to be happier. I want to fight it on my own, but it's just so hard.

I can't live like this. I've tried to see a therapist, but the only thing they said were those cliche suggestions. "exercise, do activities, make new friends, etc." They might work for others, but my depression is just too strong.

I used to slit my wrists. Not to where it would be fatal, but just to feel pain. Release myself. I did it because everyone said I deserved it. I believed them. I do deserve it. And the thing is, you can't disagree. I'm nobody.

Please don't hate me, just help me.