Matt, NeuroTalk, does not have a large number of people on the depression forum, here.

We do have a sister forum called PsychCentral. There are many mental health forums there, and blogs, etc.

Here is a link to the depression forum:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/

You have to join to post there, because our systems are not connected. You can use your same name as here or choose another. Perhaps someone who has or has gone thru what you describe is there and can help you.

It has to be complicated when you state you have 3 issues going on at the same time. Depression, autism and some type of schizophrenia. Also the medications you use may create new problems as well. So talking to others who are experiencing this may be helpful for you.

Matt ~ No one has control over their thoughts. We just don't. They're there, and that's it. And we have no control over depression, because that's caused by chemicals & hormones that get out of whack. Our thinking gets out of whack too -- but therapy can help with this and get us back on track.

Secondly, when these chemicals & hormones are LACKING, then the depression is going to continue, perhaps forever, which is what I have. That's called "clinical depression." I've had it since I was a little girl, about 5 years old. Of course they couldn't treat it back then. I didnt' start getting treatment until I was in my 20's -- so i've been on an antidepressant for about 40+ years. The antidepressants PUT BACK the chemicals & hormones that are lacking. So now that you have the chemicals & hormones, you feel "normal" -- whatever that is. LOL You feel on an even keel; your mood is stabilized, there is no more depression and things are great!!!

Does that help answer anything? If not, then I misunderstood what you were saying.

I hope I helped a little. Let me know if I didn't. Hugs, Lee

Just wanted you to know I am thinking about you. ginnie