[issyme]

I seem to be so hopelessly depressed and I do want to get over that. The problem is I can't or don't know how to. There's a guy I really like, a lot and I don't think he even knows I'm alive...yeah we talk and have things in common. I get it into my head that I'm going to go straight up to him and tell him how I feel but then of course the depressing thoughts kick in...he'll reject me, he'll hate me, I don't want to screw up his life.

How do I begin to get over this cycle & find true love? It's not that I'm afraid of him rejecting me, sure it would hurt my feelings but I'm afraid of him getting a look of disgust on his face. I don't think that I could handle that.

I'm so afraid of getting hurt that I'm afraid to come out with my true feelings. I feel completely worthless and I don't know what to do...