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Originally Posted by PamelaJune (Post 1252005)

Oh Eva, there it is, your children each still talk to one another. Your son knows the truth of it. I so wish I could help you, all I have are words and at present they're not very nice ones of the fruit of your loins.

But I can say; I can tell you, choose your sister: Tell your children you will never give up, but you are sad to say in blatant honesty that they have, you accept their choice made; they gave up yesterday, today & tomorrow with nary a thought to you or their future.

We know, us both know, your children will always be your children, but maybe they need this jolt, this sideways action of you not resisting, just accepting, you choose life, they choose of their own making to not help & you are not going to fight it. Let them feel in a week or 2 when they need you, you're not there. See what happens then. Your thoughts are so focussed on problem after problem, child after child, look on this as a mini break from them & theres.

So tired here, can't think coherently, chose your sister dear Eva, she will help I pray:hug:

Dear dear friend
I have had a terrible night
Up since 2:00
And cannot stop you know what
The tears are dry now
My granddaughter turns awake to hug me
My sister to come and help me today with laundry
Oh PamelaJune
It hurts so hard
But I must
What is wrong
I should not feel this lonely
And afraid
She may be pregnant
My youngest did exactly what the babies mother did
Not a word
I'm so scared
Oh PamelaJune
What is wrong with me
It hurts so hard
The abandoned feeling
And to look at this child and her worrying is not an option
She will fight with me
The mother now calls not when she shouldn't
Off the hook
She does not want to talk to her
And I'm the bad guy
She did this
All of it
And I'm letting it affect me
Trying so hard not to but it is
I will dear one
I have but this place to come to
I know you get
I know you do
Thanks
So where from here
I don't know
Love
Me

Dear Eva. I'm so sorry you are going through this. When I feel lost and alone I pray to God to help me find my way and hold onto blind Faith that I will find my way. God has never let me down and I believe he won't let you down either. Take care of yourself and your Granddaughter and hold onto Hope One Day at a Time. God will take it from there. Just keep moving forward. That helps me with my troubles. Sending many hugs your way.

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Originally Posted by RSD ME (Post 1252057)

Thank you for reminding me never to let go of his hand
To hold on to hope and faith
This is wher I get the love
And it feels good
Because you all care
As I do in return
Love
Me

You are never alone here Eva. You have been there to help me with the difficult times I've had with my brother's addiction and I am here for you too. You are a kind and caring person and your granddaughter is lucky to have you. And no matter what happens she will always carry your love inside her heart. Love never dies. I hope you remember to take care of yourself because you are special and matter in this world too.

Eva’s mother left this evening to a Christian based rehab facility
FOR A YEAR
There is hope
My youngest negative
My son apologized
All in the day
To you all
My love for holding me up
I am overwhelmed
Thank you all for holding me
And not letting go
In prayer for all
Amen

As I pray for hope

As I pray for my family
I also pray for all here
And to all after the horrible horrible horrible killings
May they rest in the almighty arms of Heavenly Father
And even more for the ones left behind to forever having to live with the ones taken by a single person
God grant serenity
For those to
The wisdom to understand the unimaginable
Amen

Must keep my calm

Another day
And it has a routine
God help this body calm
Keep my pressure under control
It goes through the roof so easily
Then coming home and the routine again
Don’t know how I did it all alone with my children
Zippo help
Fed them a full breakfast
And I don’t have to say all that needs to be done
In addition I suffer from OCD
So when my routine is intrupted it throws all of
That in my mind I know
Have been always aware of it
outcome to both spine surgery
First time failed to fuse
And then failed by nurses doctor that took me out
Talk about domino affect
It slowly took the entire body
So point I need to take care of me
As I’m it all
God watch over all of us
Help me calm
Help me to understand that you have a plan for the rest of my life here on this planet
With my love to all
Me

It’s a rough day

Trying to keep it together
The emotional ups and downs
It’s taking a toll
Holding on with all my might
Holding on to Heavenly Father
Along that this feel leave sooner than later
Oh how I don’t like this feeling
Me

After a very difficult night with my problematic tenant above
They found out the truth
And she now will be moved
Never did I want it to get to that point
But it has gone on long enough
Prayers answered
It explains why she was behaving as she did all night and morning long
Amen

Mother left rehab
Me