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10-14-2017, 04:27 AM | #601 | ||
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hello ,i got ocd,seldom post
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10-14-2017, 08:04 AM | #602 | |||
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Very nice to hear from you, a post once in a while or even daily can be very uplifting. Only do what you can x
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10-15-2017, 06:33 AM | #603 | |||
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If I may
I err to the side of order Everything has a home The hangers that hang in the closet aren’t measured by a ruler as I can eyeball pretty The dirty laundry gets a quick fold befor it goes into the hamper Having four grown children Adults And a grandchild six I have custody of since an infant Of them all my son and my granddaughter have OCD my neurosurgeon did not address this disorder As a result I did not fuse after my first ACDF 5/6-6/7 And second surgery botched took my life as I I had it Changed forevermore In hindsight I went back to work two weeks after surgery There I failed myself Never imposing my disease upon my children I at a very young age still single digit number in age I knew something was different about me I’m now in the later age in my fifties It is still very much alive in my life And found s way that “it” is under watch It is something I welcome It is the way I get things accomplished There have been two Jones I worked in my lifetime One a display company that still uses my orderly method And a file folder company and they too still use my orderly method for their company You would laugh if I told you the process of me brushing my teeth My friends amazed at my methods My family allowing me the freedom of my disease that helps on many levels I divorced at 24 with babies to raise Something I did with my OCD The one terrible thing with my OCD and when I suffered severe PMS is when I needed to be left alone Many years My children amazed how I new if something was moved just a smig I have learned to use it as a tool A very important one And not to impose it upon anyone I have a problem with uneven numbers Yet as a designer know it is in the odd numbers of design foes it work So that just a taste of my disease I come here today In a mild depressed way Having no control over anyone in my life I now speak of my troubled babies A difficult road they all are traveling And here I find comfort And love that helps this soul And I too want to give back With my experience strength and Hope Welcome Love Me
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10-15-2017, 07:49 AM | #604 | |||
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DB has OCD - odd numbers, can't cope, to volume has to be on an even number. We get bye, we adjust to one another quirks, it's what people who function do. Mine is less than it used to be, but I'm working on it. I can't bear things out of place, having to suck it up now. Home from hospital, can't even bend over to pick something off of the ground, tried a towel ten minutes ago - it had slipped off the rail, forgetting my strict orders. Very quickly my back spoke up. Have gone to bed, so tired, not sure I can do all this, this time round. Just too tired. Things will fall back & slide, nothing I can do, nothing....
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10-16-2017, 12:31 PM | #605 | |||
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This is one emotion I could do without
It is overpowering And I so as Heavenly Father to hold me tight Until this to shall pass I have been on a roll Doing doing doing It is not easy Never has been But this feeling of depression has got to find another home I’m so done with it So done It’s burdensome It’s strangling me I so tied of it Let it be gone already Let it be gone Me
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10-17-2017, 01:50 PM | #606 | |||
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Pressure not doing well
Have doctors to go to My mother in the hospital with a pneumonia She never had a problem with inconstance Bed wet in the morning And my sister happened to be staying there Was incoherent paramedics screwed up big time Sister wanted to take her to her doctor yesterday as she wasn’t feeling well had no room for her This must be reported What is wrong with the medical world Is it truly just about the MONEY I’m sick And trust nobody She had a fever when my sister took her to the bathroom And she voided again Unlike her And I’m crying for her She will never know So tired of it all But have no choice but to hang on I’m feeling off My heart acting up I know I need to have a necular stress test But have so many other doctors to see I lost Just lost Me
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10-17-2017, 04:05 PM | #607 | |||
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Pressure not doing well
Have doctors to go to My mother in the hospital with a pneumonia She never had a problem with inconstance Bed wet in the morning And my sister happened to be staying there Was incoherent paramedics screwed up big time Sister wanted to take her to her doctor yesterday as she wasn’t feeling well had no room for her This must be reported What is wrong with the medical world Is it truly just about the MONEY I’m sick And trust nobody She had a fever when my sister took her to the bathroom And she voided again Unlike her And I’m crying for her She will never know So tired of it all But have no choice but to hang on I’m feeling off My heart acting up I know I need to have a necular stress test But have so many other doctors to see I lost Just lost Me
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10-18-2017, 03:50 PM | #608 | |||
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From the mother how she know how overwhelming it is
She has no clue what it takes to be a mother Today o had to take Eva to the dentist Make decisions not to put her to sleep as her gag reflex is bad So we have to go back in a few weeks and apply something over them to stop decay She has the nerve to say I know She knows nothing It took hours to fill out paperwork And then calm her as she had her teeth taken care of Came home Fed her Did homework What does she know Call DYFS GIVE ME A BREAK I AM SO DONE WITH MY KIDS DONE MY PRIORITY IS EVA AND ME
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10-19-2017, 05:49 AM | #609 | |||
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Come to find out that the flu shots given
Knowingly are doing more harm than good Including and most importantly inflammation And causing heart problems Hearing this just blew my lid My mother in the hospital just had her flu shot three weeks ago I do not trust Obama knowingly knew this Remember INFLAMMATION THE FIRST SIGN SOMETHING IS WRONG all about getting us sick IN THE NAME OF MONEY I began getting the flu shot about five years ago as I am getting older and in this large 300 unit building Many sick people in this building I began to wonder I always believed in preventative health care NOT ANYMORE WITH EVEYTHING THAT HAS GONE WRONG KNOWINGLY I have zero trust in the health care system ZERO WHAT TO DO NOW holistic care is comprised with all the chemicals laced on them I have Eva And I have no doubt my depression is environmental Situational some my spirituality in check So angry about so many things To find out what happened on the tarmac is true infuriates me The corruption is incredible Horrific Just horrific Me
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10-19-2017, 09:52 AM | #610 | |||
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What a horrible feeling
Trying so hard So hard Letting go Is so hard Not something I want to do But I must Me
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