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11-10-2018, 08:10 AM | #771 | |||
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Oh, oh, oh ---- that is awful. I wish there were something I could say to make sense of this. I keep you in my prayers.
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11-10-2018, 01:39 PM | #772 | |||
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To be harassed in such a manner is more than I can stand
To keep a smile in my face while my youngest is torn to pieces remembering the day she walked out of the bathroom so high and Eva was just weeks old To come up and visit is something she will never forget Now this she is so distraught over the fact she is so unwell There is nothing nothing I can do There will come a time I will have to step in what will happen then OMG what will happen then To numb in this all teying sohard to keep it together I just want to shake her Numb I am Me
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11-10-2018, 10:20 PM | #773 | |||
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Let them go I tell myself
Why am I stressing what has no meaning The idea that they haven’t had a clue to this all I me this woman calls it like it is As I let it all out from the horses mouth no hidden crap just like it is I me this woman will live with it Hold it and kick it to the curbed Let the clean sweep do with it whatever it does I am so so done with them and not waiting for the emptiness to come It’s over see you never You have destroyed me And I won’t let you all do it anymore So the bulling stops now Now No more Now and always to protect this child Dear Father hold us in your loving arms let NOBODY PENETRATE YOUR POWER SHE HOLD ME TIGHTLY AND I HOLD YOU ME
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11-19-2018, 05:19 AM | #774 | |||
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I will not be at the table
All traditions gone Out the window I will not take out the ornaments Each one has a meaning to it In the box they will remain only to be opened when I’m long gone It just to painful for ME to even touch them One by one to remember as it was made given Ever year a new one put on the tree to be found I will not WILL NOT be at the head of the table Let them all see there is someone missing They may not even notice Wouldn’t that be sad I will be with my baby sister Eva myself and my baby sister I am so saddened by this all I don’t want to feel anything anymore It drains me so much Having to keep a smile on for this child She is fully aware of my heart and emotions Empathy she has Not her job It’s bad enough I tackle depression Doom that visits me every single morning Having to fight it with all I can Not easy Heavenly Father I call upon I ask for him to hold me so tight that it be the only thing I feel I pray for it to leave my being Difficult from time to time but I gotta do it daily Sadness a horrible emotion Wishing all a happy holiday Holding on Me
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11-20-2018, 03:00 PM | #775 | |||
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I am tired of the constant harassment
Taken to far Then to cus at me Over child support His explanation I forgot But doesn’t forget his cigarettes Or hair cut before taking care of her So let it all be on record Something I had always wanted But with all that’s going on with this body Taking care of myself Now we take card of this He already body shamed her Calling her the most boring kid in the world A fight ensued you would think the other grandmother would remove her from it Instead she hears him yell out at my daughter You need to die Done in everyway And my child chooses him I’m beyond beyond So things are or will be taken care of Just another day Me
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11-28-2018, 06:34 PM | #776 | |||
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Wasn’t thought of enough to call
Spent it with my baby sister three days My youngest called Was in her own world Not enough time for anybody but herself What happened to my family I don’t get it If I wasn’t a role model of being independent And loving oneself I failed Me
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12-02-2018, 12:14 PM | #777 | |||
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My baby sister called as she calls her too to get to me
Asking the facility to have her stop I called my granddaughters lawyer for advisement Tomorrow I will go to the court and file a report And then to the child support department to take action As this is month two no support My two sisters have been helping This is so outrageous But am forced to do what I must It just never stops And I am so depressed over the crap It must stop Eva is doing sooooo well in school at home Just leave us alone Why is not a question to ask mentally ill parents They want each other’s insanity And want to make more babies I was floored when she called me to tell me she is pregnant And then it be false I’m so tired of this all Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | Wren (12-02-2018) |
12-04-2018, 10:09 PM | #778 | |||
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Filey report
She put it together Worded it perfectly with the little time and space I was in awe how to the point and how much was said So I pray all will go accordingly May the arms of Heavenly Father hold me ever so tight That it be the only thing I feel I will not ever ever reach out to my children ever For them to forget how all really was They are not babies Manipulating they are I go back in Tim and think of what I sacrificed All for them and for what I feel at time I have failed them Just feelings not the fact of the matters My body may be broken in everyway But my mind doesn’t play tricks May my granddaughter live happy in my care So does so well in school I am in love with her She is a awesome kid of child May I always be able to keep that going in her life I pray that depression doesn’t visit me first thing when I stir Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | Wren (12-05-2018) |
12-23-2018, 09:16 AM | #779 | |||
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How sad to have to leave the comforts of my own home
Not to be bothered or harassed is just not okay But if this is the only way towards peace so be it Will be spending Christmas with my baby sister Mother and father did not follow through and mail their child support But used my sister as their delivery system Little did my baby sister know not to do their job But whe the court date January 8th will just be one more thing to show how laxed they are to her needs How or why my daughter thinks being involved with a man who has no problem calling me and voicing his sinister ways and tell me how he will cut her up put her in suitcases and doesn’t care if he goes to jail This the father of my granddaughter And she makes excuses for him Blames herself is so sad A horrible human being he is still to this day I cannot condone this behavior and I never will In today’s world not far from my fathers time in 1980 when he took a gun and killed himself I thank Heavenly Father that he didn’t kill us first It is close to my life as I lived it To say he isn’t capable of doing such a desire to void of my child is foolish for anyone to think not And she tries and tries to ram him down my throat For my granddaughter to remember her father express in one of their arguments while the other grandmother who was supposed to be supervising them did not remove my grandchild and these are the words that are burned into her brain Your mother needs to die Imagine her coming back home to me in fear A child’s father who tells her she is the most boarding child in the world That daddy scares the kids in the park That daddy pushes his mother physically to harm her To call my granddaughter a lier To teach her to lie To tell her she has a big nose And would ask me occasionally looking in the mirror “Mimma do I have a big nose” Already body shaming her And I will do everything in my power to protect her She says she doesn’t want to talk to them because they argue when she is on the phone So I will not force her And now they accuse me of brain washing her My daughter forgets so much The last time I attempted to bring mother and daughter together I suggested we meet once a week at a diner in public Her response I’m not ready I’m not ready That be the last of it and things just got worse Because I of all needed to get a call saying she is pregnant Still to this day don’t know if she is or not But why tell me don’t worry you’ll live this baby like you live who is in my care already To think she would bed with a horrible being just baffles me As sick as this may sound My other children tell me they will not have children Relieved I am To bring children into this world is not a place for them When I have a grown parent who tells me at a Christmas play show me who you son is so I can beat the s**t out of him To that I said I see what kind of human you are pick on children I was floored I got to school early to sit at the back wall to be out of the way for people who I don’t walk fast enough for them A kind man who sat next to me came to my defense This coming from a parent I wasn’t about to make a scene and called the principal and officer over a quickly took care of business Sick of this cruel world and the parents who are the teachers to their children Oh how Christ Jesus is missing in their hearts To step away from my babies and not allow them to hurt me anymore IS the hardest thing I ever had to do It depresses me terribly But I be held by the most high Jesus Hold me so tight that it be the only thing I feel Amen
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01-11-2019, 06:06 AM | #780 | |||
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Went to superior court
Full circle Like when I got divorced And was seeking a restraining order Never worked then But to stand before a hearing officer with evidence Not recent enough for them But oh did it show all and what I was dealing with Restraining order not granted Ask if I wanted to go before a judge Said yes I felt like a fool Told yo get a lawyer Doing the right thing just doesn’t seem to matter Contacted the guardian lawyer Magen for my granddaughter Told me not to worry I went down there to find out my daughter and the father who just for an example tell my grandchild “ you the most boring kid in the world” That’s just a taste The last thing my granddaughter remembered was a altercation and he told her “I hope your mother dies” So he got wiser over these years I did too But because I just turned the answering machine off And told him if they came to the house I would call the cops Is where the lapse in time But the court did not want to hear that I was mortified Beside myself Was victimized over and over and over So they are bringing me to court My son 35 a heroin addict asked if he could stay here I told him no Wrote a letter on behalf of my daughter the I was lying when I told the court he would get into a altercation with my daughter call me tell me how he will chop her up into pieces put her in suitcases and doesn’t care if he went to jail Write I made that up Beside myself What’s wrong with them I don’t know and I have given up on any relationship with them I have a incident report dats back 2007 when I was still working nights saying how he will come to my job kill me first then kill my daughter This didn’t matter to the courts So beside myself But I will get a lawyer And do all I must for my granddaughter and myself Done
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