Back to you
Thanks for reaching out
It is so good to hear from you
Loving empowering hugs in return
Me

Hi Eva. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and hope you are feeling better. Hugs to you my friend.

Won't get much out
As I am leaning on Heavenly Father
I am all over the place with this tiny family you would think not much would be going on
So far from that idea
It is not that I don't put one foot in front of the other and just do someone has to
Everyone else has a life that they have to figure out
The problem beings with calling me and letting me in their world
And yes I listen and listen until I have a chance to speak on a matter I have experience with or on
And if one isn't reseptive to anything I have to suggest and just wants to hear what they want
Well to that I say contact me when you are really ready to be honest and truthful
Until then I have my own path I have to walk
My life has changed
It changed me forevermore and I am a better person because of all that has happened it is not easy
And to put my Spirit first and follow all else follows exactly how it is suppose to be
I miss the routine coming here and trying to follow and start to write only to loose it
And have had help explaining how to hold on to it
I just fail when it comes to technology
My body slowly breaking down as time goes by
Doctors still cannot figure out why my body veins in my hands and feet
Will return to finish
Baby sister stopped by

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It a hard thing to have to turn my back on my family
I no longer am a punching bag
No longer their cheerleader no longer will I pick up the phone when I have walked the walk into 25 years of soberiety and for my son to think he can do it on his terms he will need to step out of my life as I will not entertain his desire to pick a fight with me as does things HIS WAY
All I can do is pray but I must cut my ties with two of my children it is because I love them I step back and not be the reason in anyway
They must do what they must without me

My health is priority
And I'm going through it by myself and Heavenly Father
I pray all will pass without incident
Me

Oh Eva, you must look after yourself, you know this as equally as you know they must follow their own path and come to the realisation sobriety is just that; it's not moderation, it's not controlled using, it's 100% without substance clear head. I join you in prayer this will come without incident. My prayers too are for you, sending you virtual hugs

After five years with my granddaughter
She has been recommended to attend the school for the gifted and talented
Not only did my for children attend the same school
Now Eva will be attending
She loves to read loves it
So thrilled for her
Hoping mom will find her way
As smart as they are it too comes with many adversities
They are not babies anymore
And addiction is prevelant in this tiny family
Something they do not seem to remember how mommy has her soberiety to handle first
One day at a time
It if it be the only thing I do in my day and not pick up
I have yet another day sober
It matters
It matters more than anything to me
It made me who I am today
And I like me
To my dear friends who support me through my trouble and I thank you
Thank you
Me

So tired
So tired of bad people
I will be in court only to have that time come
Not well is she
I can walk into court confidently with all to show
And understanding I cannot be the one to take matters into my own hand
So the managers were to have been handling this
I never had any intention to file a police report
Not something I should be doing even though it is me and my family subjected to her abnormal psysocotic addict behavior
So having an understanding of this
I hold those who are responsible to handle it
The management office
As I collect all evedince of said complaints
Point
A very important document that was delivered by me as my eighteen year old as witness
And as it was opened
Requested it go in file
In it it asks the three top persons in the chain of command and as instructed by them to call the NBPD
and to go place a complaint on her
This is where I remind them what the lease says
And it clearly explains the management and maneger are suppose to take action on this letter submitted
I have my own copy
What are the chances my suspicions come to light
Of ALL documents THEY MUST GIVE ME TO SHOW WHAT THEY DID TO HANDLE AND RECTIFY THE SITUATION " is missing"
In it I say me and my family are subjected to irrational behavior roaming the halls inebriated knocking on doors for drugs
And disturpts my sleep as our apartments are identical and her bedroom is above mine I have caught by recording her when this awakening behavior is at all hours of the morning
And much more
I have continued to call "only when she is OOC"
Now it is where it is
I told Roslyn the director who I do not trust for other reasons that I personally encountered by other tenants
One of the questions I have been asked for example is
"How much did you pay to come into this building"
Approached at the town pool while I'm in the water with a friend and interrupted by a woman who since passed
Peggy was her name
Was the first one to ask me
And other things began to happen and thought then
Oh my goodness
What am I going to have to deal with in this building
And because I had 10 years experience in my previous building
I will have pictures to submit what me and my children along with all the other tenants the true meaning of a slumloard
It was a brand new building
The third and fourth floors weren't done yet
10 years fighting the system
And in the end me and another tenant were the ones who made a difference
We fought to the very end
So when I had a chance to come into this swelling I was thrilled
I was at that point on leave with no pay
And let me say something
It is if not worse here then what I went through in my previous dwelling in my home town for 46 years
To here hoping for peace a way to start over with a forever changed life
I have always been a smart cookie
I had some court experience
Represented myself and made a difference
In set precedence in New Jersey back in 1988
The case was talked about for years
His name was judge Shaffer
Had everyone stand up and told them
"You can all thank mrs. ...... for the hard work she did"
And what that means is
I did their jobs
Depressed sure I am
I am tired
And she has much to do with the lack of sleep
I need my rest
It is very important
And to know having to deal with corrupt people really really upsets me
And if by chance the proof I have is not enough just the first top three piceces of evedience wouldn't be enough to show the truth I then will be very disappointed
There isn't anything this woman has as I do not do anything
We are quiet
Even my granddaughter understand no running or jumping
So my arms must be wide open and say yo myself
God you have me go through this for a reason
Only you know what that reason may be
I have my own ideas Heavenly Father is using me
It is over a three hundred unit building
The management likes to strong arm the helpless
Those who have no idea they too have rights
I will try not to be upset as I get all ready fir the courts
And have my Savior in my being
I'm so tired
So tired
Depressed of how many bad people in the world
Me

Praying for you Eva. I have seen alot of bad people in this world too, but have also seen some good ones as well. You are one of them! Hold onto Faith and Hope one day at at time and know that you matter and have made a difference in this world. You helped me cope with my (recovering) brother. He is still not talking to me but I hear from his friend he is doing okay. I couldn't have gotten through that pain without your help. Hugs to you.