I have given up on my children
I have given up on any help that could come from them
My son told me today your gonna have to get over it and accept that you have to do it alone
I told him no it doesn't have to be that way you all choose not to help
I am letting go
My sister will fight with me if must
I have given up on them in everyway
And will give all I can to take care of Eva alone
Me

Oh Eva, there it is, your children each still talk to one another. Your son knows the truth of it. I so wish I could help you, all I have are words and at present they're not very nice ones of the fruit of your loins.

But I can say; I can tell you, choose your sister: Tell your children you will never give up, but you are sad to say in blatant honesty that they have, you accept their choice made; they gave up yesterday, today & tomorrow with nary a thought to you or their future.

We know, us both know, your children will always be your children, but maybe they need this jolt, this sideways action of you not resisting, just accepting, you choose life, they choose of their own making to not help & you are not going to fight it. Let them feel in a week or 2 when they need you, you're not there. See what happens then. Your thoughts are so focussed on problem after problem, child after child, look on this as a mini break from them & theres.

So tired here, can't think coherently, chose your sister dear Eva, she will help I pray

Dear dear friend
I have had a terrible night
Up since 2:00
And cannot stop you know what
The tears are dry now
My granddaughter turns awake to hug me
My sister to come and help me today with laundry
Oh PamelaJune
It hurts so hard
But I must
What is wrong
I should not feel this lonely
And afraid
She may be pregnant
My youngest did exactly what the babies mother did
Not a word
I'm so scared
Oh PamelaJune
What is wrong with me
It hurts so hard
The abandoned feeling
And to look at this child and her worrying is not an option
She will fight with me
The mother now calls not when she shouldn't
Off the hook
She does not want to talk to her
And I'm the bad guy
She did this
All of it
And I'm letting it affect me
Trying so hard not to but it is
I will dear one
I have but this place to come to
I know you get
I know you do
Thanks
So where from here
I don't know
Love
Me

Dear Eva. I'm so sorry you are going through this. When I feel lost and alone I pray to God to help me find my way and hold onto blind Faith that I will find my way. God has never let me down and I believe he won't let you down either. Take care of yourself and your Granddaughter and hold onto Hope One Day at a Time. God will take it from there. Just keep moving forward. That helps me with my troubles. Sending many hugs your way.

Thank you for reminding me never to let go of his hand
To hold on to hope and faith
This is wher I get the love
And it feels good
Because you all care
As I do in return
Love
Me

You are never alone here Eva. You have been there to help me with the difficult times I've had with my brother's addiction and I am here for you too. You are a kind and caring person and your granddaughter is lucky to have you. And no matter what happens she will always carry your love inside her heart. Love never dies. I hope you remember to take care of yourself because you are special and matter in this world too.

Eva’s mother left this evening to a Christian based rehab facility
FOR A YEAR
There is hope
My youngest negative
My son apologized
All in the day
To you all
My love for holding me up
I am overwhelmed
Thank you all for holding me
And not letting go
In prayer for all
Amen