Hi, crew,
Not much to offer, but I thought I'd say "Hello"...
Lots on my plate lately, and I'm beginning to grow increasingly weary. The load is getting heavier, the road steeper, times more trying, but I'm simply not "The Little Engine That Could."

Try to have a pleasant weekend, everyone!

Much love and

Here! It's going to get better. It has to.

Hi friends,
It is cold and dreary here today. I am doing a bit better in the pain department, but still in a lot of pain. Laura is coming on Monday to see me for our contact, and then Tuesday I don't have classes, because we have a cool thing called Project Success Day at school where we can go to some workshops to help us better succeed in classes. Some professors even give credit for going to the sessions. Depending on how I am feeling pain wise, I may go. There is some workshops that discuss life after college, which is something that I worry about, even now, when I am not even transferred to another school (besides the community college) yet. I just worry about it because I have never worked for a substantial ammount of time,due to mental and physical health issues.....some of which I still deal with.

Mood wise, I am doing ok, but I am getting the chills a bit, so I am wondering if the low back pain is from a UTI or not. I kind of feel like I have one, but it is so hard to tell with me....because I get them so much and have bladder pain a lot from the Neurogenic bladder. That is why my urologist wants me to get cathed specimens. (Ouch!)

Sometimes I wish I did not have all these medical problems, but I think they make me a stronger, more compassionate person, so they are ok I guess. Well, they kind of have to be because I have no choice but to deal with them......I used to get so depressed because I was sick, and sick because I was depressed. It kind of fed on each other. It is a vicious cycle....Anyway, just a bit of reflection there.....Hope everyone has a good day and weekend!

Hello --- I'm still here. I'm still throwing stuff away. I'm still cleaning.
Me? Me, cleaning?

Not much to say here- worked all day and went to a fire at midnight. Same old same old for me, except thinking of new ways to permanently solve my problems for good . . .

Hey, everyone. Sorry to hear that so many of you are feeling down today. But Julie is right - things will get better in the long run. I'm waiting for that to happen, too. Hang in there Ponyboy & Resqgirl...

Pony ~ You sound so down lately. I'm bummed for you. You can talk more about it here, you know? We'll listen. (((((Pony)))))

Kelly ~ You've been through a lot... I mean with the medical stuff. I think you have a great attitude, though. You really do.

Hi to Julie, Ideal and Resq ~ Hope your day went O.K.?

Kind of had a blow up with my therapist last week... Something that was said is REALLY nagging at me. Ugh. I wanted to stay away from her for the next month... Really get my crap together... But I SO want to email her about this. I feel like I HAVE to make sure she knows what I meant. Because I didn't like her response... Ugh. I hate this... Why do things have to change so much? Things were fine... And then feelings had to enter into it. Ugh.

I'll figure it out...

Have a good night... ~ Sly