[indigo]

I'm not really sure where to post this. Chronic pain? Here? I feel really low tonight and I know that part of that is sleep deprivation. last night I only slept for 2 hours because the pain was so bad.

As some people will know I have a severe pain disorder and I have gone through the hospital system and come out the other end no better. there are no more drugs to try. I live in New Zealand so the options are more limited. I haven't been seeking to be pain free, just to have reduced pain. I'm usually about 6/10 pain score but that has gone up to about a 9/10 in the last few weeks. Especially my hands and feet. A great way to disable someone. I know meds are only part of the solution but if I can't get the pain lowered it's almost impossible to do all the other things that can help.

before i developed this condition I had a long history of very serious depression, since I was 18 and now I'm dealing with this. I know there's lots of other people struggling with equally difficult things. I just don't know where to go from here there is no quality of life and I see little hope of that changing. I can't see a way forward and I'm steadily getting worse. Have other people found a way to live with severe pain??? All I feel is despair.