[dorrie]

I have not felt so sad in a long time. Life has been so difficult lately. I did not think it could get much worse after I asked my daughter to leave our home but it did get worse. Katie was arrested again. She continues to oppose authority. She met me outside our apartment building as we were pulling in after my hubbys aunts funeral and just dropped the bomb on me. She sounded as if she thought it was cool. I have not had a panic attack since I was finished councelling for it over a year ago. I had one a while after her news. I have been exhausted ever since. My sugars have been so high..stress seems to raise them on me...and I have had very little sleep lately. Last night I went to the Treasure House, a Christian book and gift store and felt a little more serene when I left but I find myself slipping into that terrible spot where I feel sad and hopeless. Life is soooo hard to deal with sometimes. My heart is aching and I can't seem to stop it!! Sorry All....just really needed to vent