Hi, My name is Amber, and I'm new to these boards. (I'm another former Health Boards Member)
I have dealt with depression/PTSD for over 12 years now, and recently started having some serious anxiety issues. This past year has been extremely difficult...the past five weeks have been the worst, and has sent me into this downward spiral that I just can't seem to get out of. I'm looking for some emotional support to help get through this time, as I'm really struggling to "cope" these days.
I look forward to talking with some of you. Thanks,
Amber

Hi Amber and welcome to NeuroTalk! So glad to have you here. Have a look around and feel free to join in anywhere you feel comfortable.

Hi again Amber, will wait for your next post....

Hi there Amber and welcome from me as well.

I have to assume that it's you and your family in your avatar, and you all look so lovely. Thank you for sharing that with us.

Welcome again. I look forward to getting to know you around the boards.

[QUOTE=Koala77;279335]Hi there Amber and welcome from me as well.

I have to assume that it's you and your family in your avatar, and you all look so lovely. Thank you for sharing that with us.

Welcome again. I look forward to getting to know you around the boards.



Thank you all for the welcome. Yes, that is my family...minus one. We lost our five week old daughter a month ago, to SIDS. Her picture is on my file.
I'm really not feeling up to posting much today...but I will get around to introducing myself more later. Thank you again...and from what I've seen, I really like the way these boards are set up. Take care,
Amber

Hi Amber! Welcome to NeuroTalk!

After reading your post, it's plain to see why you are having such a difficult time. Your little "angel is heaven" is beautiful, as is the rest of your good-looking family.

My suggestion is to visit the "Wonder" threads in the suicide forum. I realize that doesn't sound like it would apply to your situation, but you'll find some really fine and gentle people there. It is a very soothing place to "hang out."

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread45537.html
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread45314.html
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread45177.html

Hugs to you!

I'm really glad to meet you. But terribly sorry to hear that you are fighting with the beast of depression so much. I can't say that I understand exactly how you feel, because our situations aren't the same. But I've been fighting depression for quite a while now. It comes and it goes, but for the past few months I've been hanging on by my fingernails half the time.

My depression stems from several things. I've had an illness for six years with no diagnosis. My wife has decided she can't handle it any longer, and has been pushing me to leave for the past year. And my only son, who is eighteen, has gotten himself into some stupid but serious problems with the law, and there is a good chance he might spend a few years in prison because of it.

It's been very difficult, and some days it's really hard to get out of bed. I don't mean to sound crazy, but some nights I almost wish I could go to bed and not wake up the next morning. But I'm not a suicidal person. It's just a part of me speaking out it's frustration, I suppose.

Anyway, I didn't write all this stuff to make you feel even worse, or to try and steal your thread. I just want you to know that I do understand what you feel, at least in principle. And I know how bad it hurts. We always try to play it down, because we don't want people to think we're just feeling sorry for ourselves. But the members here know what you are talking about, and they will not treat it lightly.

You do have a beautiful family. I wish you and all of them the very best. Good luck, Amber, and I hope to see you here again soon.

Idealist