Anne - Dear Anne - You have support and understanding.

Dear Anne,
I usually use this for rookies and new members but I'll remind you:

You are not alone.
You are one of us.
And we are here to help.

Granted, opposite sides of the planet and time differences, but we are always here.

Now, your sister.
No matter how it may hurt to do it, cut her loose.
I know, I know. And I'm not saying it to be a jerk. It may hurt to put and keep your distance from her, but what she's doing right now is already hurting you.

When people like that do those things, I push them to arm's length and keep them their. (Not within arm's reach, mind you.) And when it's someone I care about or even loved, it hurts to retaliate that way.

But I have a limit to the pushing I will tolerate before I push back. And as you said, it get's bottled up only to build into an explosion. (I used to be that way. Not so much anymore). But when that happens, I'd hurt myself and the other person without resolving the issue. Not healthy for anyone involved.

Effexor. Yep. We got it here. Tried it years ago for the depression and OCD. Didn't see much on results so I went back to Paxil. But that's just me.

I wish you the best, beautiful.x2

Koala sister . why dont ya just adopt me as little sis. ....Oh ya already did .
and this sis has healing hugs and will be holding you in her prayers tightly!!!
As for visit with councilor ... had many but not sure how it is over the ocean in your country.
When i went i had things written down . we made list and worked on each item going one step at a time. when i had to drive again . first week just get in and sit in car short time then a bit longer. then try to back out of drive way...then drive down street... then around block...you get the pic. I had panic attacks and other issues but i was just sharing the driving thing.
Twink is right exactly right when she stated you NEED TO TAKE CARE OF YOU!!!!!! and all of us here will take care of you too. because your my new sister and we are family . you have been threw way to much and you need to "Unload" some of that and lighten the weight you are carrying. lean n us and go to all your apts and take meds and let us help you while you are doing that. holding you in my heart ,my prayers and healing thoughts, anne.
PEACE
BMW

Koala...please know that I am thinking of you.

Koala I hope you are getting your sleep and eating .Keeping you tight in my prayers and thoughts.
I am off to send my prayers and wonders to the star lit sky outside know your in them Anne.
PEACE
BMW

Thank you one and all!

I haven't taken the first dose of the anti depressant Efexor yet because I'm still reading up on the medication, and I'm not overly impressed with all those nasty side effects.

I'm not convinced that the cure is better than the disease at the moment, so I'll give it a bit more time while I do a bit more research.

Please know that I am so very grateful for your support.

(((Anne))) I think your sister has taken advantage of your kind and forgiving nature...you let her get away with the abuse and so she takes advantage of it. She can "count on you" to react..it gives her power over you in a strange kind of needy way...in my opinon.

that's not a nice way to treat anyone, let alone a family member. Like Moose said, I'd distance myself from her...you have enough grief in your life without taking on more.

Just because we are related to some people, we don't have to like them.
And we certainly don't have to be their whipping board.

You deserve better.

You're all so very kind to me, and I truly appreciate your words of support.

I have a lot to think about over the next few days and I'll reply to your posts when I've had more time to get my thoughts together, but I wanted you to know that I'm not ignoring your kindness.

Thank you again. Hugs to all of you.