I have been back and forth between suicidal and semi-ok for the past two years now. I don't know what to do. I am still waiting on insurance to go see a doc. I want to move out in January on my own but I am terrified that things will get worse, and I may even get into trouble being on my own. There are too many things to get ready and I don't know how I will manage to pack in between working. I just want to get out of the house anyway possible. I have become a monster. I used to be a nice person, but now I get angry over little things.