[Hopeless]

To all my NT friends,

Each day I wake thinking today will be the day I will get to do more than just exist. Today will be the day that I can function for at least a few minutes to take care of the daily activities of life.

Then, night time arrives and I look back upon the day and can't think of anything that I accomplished other than existing. Then, I think, maybe tomorrow.

While I have several conditions, all it takes is a moment on NT to realize how many conditions I do NOT have and how good my existence really is each day. Just a moment on NT and things get put into perspective.

While I still have times when I get so frustrated that I am not the person I used to be, I am so very glad to wake each day even if it gets wasted. I just worry that I am too old to be wasting so many of the days I may have remaining.

NT is not only a place to receive support, ideas, compassion, a place to vent and share, but it is also a place I see just how fortunate I am.

To everyone that has conditions not within my personal experience, I wish so much for you in your particular situation(s).

I never realized how much I have to be thankful for about my remaining health. The list is very long of conditions that I do NOT have and so very glad for that.

NT quickly reminds me not to dwell on the issues I have, but on all the conditions I am so very thankful that I do NOT have in my life. I will count my blessings and hope I wake each day to see if it will be the day that I DO accomplish something other than existing. Who knows, I might even get a load of laundry done before yet another week wisks by me. (I am running low on clean towels.) Thank goodness I have enough undies to last for months before I need to tackle the laundry. I guess that is why I have about 5 or 6 dozen.

I have a little plaque that says:

Thank you GOD for granting me this new day, especially since I messed up yesterday so badly.

I just substitute the word "wasted" for messed up.

The purpose of this post was to say how grateful I am to my NT friends and to wish each of you better days.

[kicker]

Today you helped me to think about stuff. Thank you.

[bluesfan]

Thanks hopeless for putting into words what so many of us here feel.

For so long the word that spun around my brain was 'useless' - that's how I felt about myself. Thanks to NT that has changed; the friends I've found here, the information that has helped me sort out treatments, the advice that has steered me in the right direction, the support that has kept me sane, I too know that each day is worth getting up for, even if I actually achieve nothing that day.

As I've said previously: take the good days and run with them and just endure the bad ones.

[EnglishDave]

Well put, Hope.

Dave.

[DejaVu]

Hi Hopeless,

I want you to know you have now inspired me to immediately purchase lots more undies!

I love your posts here and have wondered, from day one, as to why you have chosen the name "Hopeless," as you spread so much love and hope here on NT.

I, too, often wish I could accomplish more each day.
As long as I can honestly tell myself I am doing my best, that's truly all I can do. In evaluating my daily performance, I must honestly acknowledge the choices I have made -- choices like am I going to read NT or.... ___________.

Sometimes, I get more compulsive about time management and start allotting blocks of time, with a timer set.
(I used to be that regimented... every day. I have grown some since then.)


DejaVu

[Hopeless]

Dear DejaVu,

I was Hopeless until I found my NT friends and a really good pain mgt. doc. Now I am just "Hope".

[DejaVu]

Originally Posted by Hopeless

Dear DejaVu,

I was Hopeless until I found my NT friends and a really good pain mgt. doc. Now I am just "Hope".

DejaVu

[St George 2013]

Awwww Hope.....u have no idea how truly awesome u are my sweet friend !

So glad u put this in a post for everyone to see.

At my worst times I only have to go as far as this laptop to know I need to be thankful for what I don't have.

All u wonderful people on NT really amaze and humble me.

Debi from Georgia

ps .... using a tablet while my brother works on my laptop...lol...I'm not to good on this thing !

[Hopeless]

I found my BEST, closest, dearest, friend on this site.

I am forever grateful for all the other special people I have met here, too.

I can never thank you all enough for all your help and kindness.