[Wiix]

I have been feeling it coming on slowly. I don't feel depressed. It's more like a feeling of "What do I do NEXT??" I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm not bored, I have Plenty of stuff I could do I am just sick of everything. I know there are things I Could do, I mean something NEW and I'm wracking my brain trying to come up with one or two NEW things I could add to my life. I NEEEED something but I just don't know what the HELL it is. Anyone else ever felt this way??

[Lara]

Hi Wiix,
Your description of how you're feeling sounds very familiar to me. I don't get like that too often but I'm a bit that way at the moment. I think I have "itchy feet".
Maybe time to re-arrange some things. Feng Shui the wardrobe or something. lol Re-arrange the bedroom or the living room. Buy or make a new quilt cover and pillows or something like that to just make things different without having to leave home.

I hope you find something that helps make you feel less lost there. Sometimes when I feel a bit lost and in that weird and hard to describe mood I really find that doing a few little changes around me helps me find what I'm looking for even when I don't know what it is.
take care of yourself.

[shiney sue]

All morning and afternoon i keep looking around thinking i want. But
what i don't know. I'm like you there are so many things i have to
do,but it's just not what i want. all i know it's kind of a sad feeling.
I have a feeling we will find it. Many Blessings Sue

[Wiix]

Originally Posted by shiney sue

All morning and afternoon i keep looking around thinking i want. But
what i don't know. I'm like you there are so many things i have to
do,but it's just not what i want. all i know it's kind of a sad feeling.
I have a feeling we will find it. Many Blessings Sue

Yes, Exactly but in my case I have no idea what it is I want. More like disillusioned. So many things I think about the past, I'm not lost in it I just revisit once in a while, that if I had done differently my life would have been so much better. ONE Major decision I made steered my life in such a BAD direction for ME. I did what everyone else wanted me to do and I feel like that was my undoing. It set up a series of events that have lasted now for 35+ years.

I get to feeling like all the things most people take for granted, I never had. I never had a vacation, I never had a baby with someone I loved, I never had the love an support of my family, especially my Mother. Why now at this point in my life am I thinking about THAT?? Seems everything I ever did was to please her and it seems like right up to her death she Hated me. That makes me so Angry/Furious/Sad. I can't DO anything about it, I never could. I just feel like she never even liked me. Usually it's on Sundays when I think about her and our relationship. I just feel Burned-Out.

[Jomar]

Every child craves a mothers love, but sometimes the mother cannot give it for whatever reason.
It's hard to stop wanting that mommy connection even when we are grown.
Maybe you are still grieving for that connection, reconciliation or even an apology, that can never come now?

I have the "blahs" every now and then, but it usually passes in a few days. Just be gentle to yourself till it does.

[AfterMyNap]

How strange, Wiix, you have described almost exactly what's going on in my head right now. I'm not sad or upset or depressed either. I am having a hard time with understanding the point in all this life junk.

This has been coming and going for the last year or so and it doesn't even bother me. I just really don't care about anything anymore. The odd thing is, I don't care about that either!

[Wiix]

Thanks AMN. I was hoping someone would reply. A really good way to describe this is like one of those Bingo Ball tumbler things. You know, with the handle someone turns and all the balls are just flying around in there then it just stops and everything settles. That's what it's like for me. Just a Mass Scramble of my brain. No cohesive thoughts just a Jumbled mess. Then all of a sudden it stops and all my thoughts allign themselves and life makes some sort of sense again.

Luckily, this has passed for now but it comes around once in a while. I have been sleeping quite a bit since this happened. Maybe my brain is just tired and needs a Time-Out. I am feeling much better the past week or so BUT I do seem to be having a headache for a part of the day.

[Wren]

Originally Posted by AfterMyNap

How strange, Wiix, you have described almost exactly what's going on in my head right now. I'm not sad or upset or depressed either. I am having a hard time with understanding the point in all this life junk.

This has been coming and going for the last year or so and it doesn't even bother me. I just really don't care about anything anymore. The odd thing is, I don't care about that either!

Wiix -- Cindy had a great deal to say that expresses what I'd say if I were better at things like that. But, I am SO glad it has passed for you now. How wonderful !! I hope the headache passes too.
God bless.

[Wiix]

Originally Posted by AfterMyNap

How strange, Wiix, you have described almost exactly what's going on in my head right now. I'm not sad or upset or depressed either. I am having a hard time with understanding the point in all this life junk.

This has been coming and going for the last year or so and it doesn't even bother me. I just really don't care about anything anymore. The odd thing is, I don't care about that either!

It seems as we age, every few years the things we care about Shift. Maybe it's to preserve our sanity. We just can't keep worrying about EVERYTHING ad infinitum. I think we'd crack up. Maybe it's just Nature's way of getting rid of things that don't really matter so much anymore as when we were younger, like funtioning ovaries. who needs em??

That's a good way to describe it AMN, getting rid of the JUNK we don't need to be dragging around with us anymore. I said this to my sister a few years ago. She is 13 years older than me. I did ask her if the things you used to care about are changing and she said yes too.

[AfterMyNap]

Originally Posted by Wiix

It seems as we age, every few years the things we care about Shift. Maybe it's to preserve our sanity. We just can't keep worrying about EVERYTHING ad infinitum. I think we'd crack up. Maybe it's just Nature's way of getting rid of things that don't really matter so much anymore as when we were younger, like funtioning ovaries. who needs em??

That's a good way to describe it AMN, getting rid of the JUNK we don't need to be dragging around with us anymore. I said this to my sister a few years ago. She is 13 years older than me. I did ask her if the things you used to care about are changing and she said yes too.

It is junk. A lot of junk. I'm facing increased disability with MS and my priorities are very different from what I ever imagined, so much so, that I'm in a sea of confusion as to what actually matters to me. The only real decision I've made lately is that my brakes are due for maintenance, and I guess I should do it. Sheesh, it took all my mental energy to arrive at the obvious conclusion!

My friendships are changing, some are slipping away and I feel like it's because I just have nothing interesting to say anymore. I dunno, I've always been the energy source among my people, and I'm plumb wore out.

I still make plans and everything, it just seems like this is someone else's life.